Cannot get over my girlfriend's past

disturbing and just so weird of the guy ... it's mind effing me, how can someone be so weird, and how can she be with someone so weird like that ... i still wake up and sleep on it, I pray all the time that i get over it

any guys on here ever done something like that ? not judging, just want insights

Divine1966 I know it happened long ago, but i cannot block the thought, it's like a movie playing in my head without pressing a button, I'm telling you, i look at people and wonder what have they done or if they ever did something like that... i don't know why this is happening

I think you're needlessly obsessing over this. To let it effect you this much is harmful. Do try to let it go.... you're only harming yourself with continued thoughts and obsession.

i know :/ as much as i try to let it go it just won't leave me alone ..... what can i do ? ... it's probably childish to all of you, but not to me, i even got fired from my job and that had noooo effect on me whatsoever
p.s. i broke up with her a few days ago, and all i wana do is sleep, i try to force myself into sleeping cuz then i'm not feeling anything

Do you see a therapist?

Yes, I would see a professional therapist for this, if you are not already.

no i cannot afford it

Certain therapists will give sliding scale fees so it's affordable, depending on where you are located in the world.

You need to seek professional help for this

So you broke up with her and got fired all because of that 15 year old? If you can't afford therapy why don't you see a psychiatrist? Doctor? Government mental health service? Anyone?

no that was because of unequal treatment and i didn't accept it, so i got fired on the spot
thank you everyone who tried to help we can consider the matter closed.. it's gona take time to heal and forget but that's life