stuck with my family and life

I hate my parents and being at my home makes me even more depressed and anxious even when nothing is wrong. My parents fight a lot and they have issues of their own, and they're very controlling. They used to abuse me a lot when I was younger, and still do sometimes but I try my best to avoid it. They think I need to have perfect grades need to go to a good university to succeed, and they won't accept any other career option.

I'm 'smart', or they say, and I keep my grades good but I don't really want a career in this direction. I gave a lot of thought to this and the best thing I found ( what i thought would at least make me content ) was a job related to coding and programming, because it related to art too. I want to move to another country when I grow up so bad, so I thought I could get a job like this abroad. But every job I mention they give reasons why it isn't a good choice, they pretend to be helping me but they pick on anything I mention and just herd me into what they want me to be, like a doctor or a professor.

But I like to sing and I love playing the guitar, and I actually really want to have a job like this. I know how music can help people, and I want to create music that would make people feel they're not alone, it's kind of like a secret dream of mine. My friends think I've got a good voice and I think I could get better if I get some lessons. Once I got the chance to sing in front of my parents (long story), and they were really surprised, and they even said I could sing really well. My grandmother (she does something related to singing, also a long story) suggested that I should make this a career, but my dad was like "No chance, music should just be a hobby".
And this isn't something I want to do professionally but I like to draw / paint, I gave up on this some time ago but I've started drawing again. My dad hates that I paint, I can just see that he does and I hate it so much.

I hate my family and this place so much, I just want to move to another country by myself and do whatever I want to do. I really don't care if I can make a lot of money or not, I just want to be happy and I'm sure I would be able to live a content life without meeting the expectations my parents have for me.

But right now I'm stuck here and I can't do anything about it, this is killing me.

I'm so sorry you feel this way. It must be absolutely terrible.

How old are you? Perhaps if you started doing some jobs and save some money, you'd be able to move out sooner. I'm so sorry

[QUOTE=MickeyCheeky;5872734] I'm so sorry you feel this way. It must be absolutely terrible.

How old are you? Perhaps if you started doing some jobs and save some money, you'd be able to move out sooner. I'm so sorry [/QUOTE

I'm 14.. and I don't really think they'd let me work or if I have the time to but thanks anyways

At least you know what you want in your heart of hearts. Keep holding on to that. Coding and programming seems like a good field to me and you’d still have plenty of time to make music or art. Bide your time and build your talents whenever you have a chance. Living with your parents won’t last forever and then you can do what really calls to you.

Thank you.. It's just that I don't know if I'll make it to that time without giving up.