How do I approach OT care coordinator

I love my care coordinator OT I can't help feeling love, romantic, sexual feelings towards her and I want to show her respect and the last thing I want to do is upset her or make her uncomfortable. Well she's fine to work continue working with me and said she's not uncomfortable about my transference as long as I don't act on it.

I can't help but feel annoyed with her for example there's been times when she wouldn't answer my question and answer by asking me a question such as I said "how do I stop feeling self conscious in a dress?" Silence on phone. Followed by "how did you cope before?" OT said "how did you cope before " again when I said "have you ever dealt with sexualised transference?" And then 3 days ago I said to her "can I ask a silly question " she said yes so I said "can you tell me why I should continue living?" And she says "why do you think you should continue living?" Well I am annoyed by her asking me a question when I have just asked her and I don't know what to do about it because I don't want to provoke her but I'm annoyed and feel I need to do something about it but don't know how to approach it. Any suggestions?

I told her via email about my overdose in 2008 and asked if it was self harm or suicide. No response. Didn't acknowledge it but replied to my other questions. Then I said in the next email: just wanted to know about overdose was it self harm or suicide attempt? Again she replied to other parts of email, no response about suicide or self harm question. I'm getting annoyed at her.

And when I told her about support worker being abusive and threatening as described by a previous post on here "I can throw a stronger punch than you if you were to hit me" and other comments by worker. OT doesn't acknowledge abuse/ unprofessionalism/ offensive comments etc. OT asked :does the worker feel pressured by you to make a PIP written statement? I said no because her comments were before the PIP assessment (2 weeks before) OT says I quoted support worker out of context. No a majority of workers comments were on one day. Anyway my neighbor says report the worker to care agency because worker will be doing it to other people, that other people will be more vulnerable than me unable or too scared to report.Neighbor says worker can't talk to me like that. OT is pathologising me thinking because I used to be aggressive emotional/ outbursts like I deserve crap from the worker? OT asked did you have argument with worker. I said no. And no I haven't ever shown anger aggression at worker. I haven't had an emotional outburst for 5 years and the last one was July 2017 when I ended it with J. I just been thinking I can't rely on anyone to care for me. I have to stand up for myself, cause OT isn't go to do it. Neighbor is right I should complain about worker Please advise, obviously I don't want to upset OT because i really value what she does for me but I'm annoyed at some of the ways she addresses things.
Thanks all xx

I think the reason OT asks you quesrions back is because you are asking her questions she is not trained to answer. They are outside of her job description and probably her ability. Those are the kinds of questions you should be asking and discussing with a trained therapist or counselor-- like the domestic violence counselor OT suggested you make an appointment with. I think your expectations for OT are somewhat unrealistic; her job is do a specific set of tasks like take you to appointments and help you with the skills you need in order to be able to work (or get disability). She can't be your emotional support person because that isn't her job. It really sounds like you need a therapist, so why not call today and ask for an appointment? The reality is that, as adults, we have to be responsible for ourselves. As much as we wish someone else could take of us, we have to take care of ourselves. So why not take care of yourself by taking the initiative to make yourself an appointment with a sexual violence counselor at the charity your OT told you about? I can relate to the disappointment that OT can't be perfect and can't be the one to "save" you-- those of us who didn't get taken care of as children feel like we got cheated out of that experience. But that doesn't change the fact that we are now adults and have to look out for ourselves-- because the reality is that no one else will.

To have a better understanding of your situation, what is the disability you have that requires you to have an OT and care coordinator? Do you have an intellectual disability or just mental health disability? Do you want to work towards getting a job or do you need to be on disability permanently?

OT has provided me with emotional support when I raged about J in my emails and OT said I should concentrate on the present and future and that things will get easier with regards to breakup with J emotional blackmail and harrassment which was reported to police. OT has encouraged me to go to gym said because I was able to do 2 hour workouts 5 years ago , before that it would be easier for me than someone who had not done it previously.
I have a mental health disability. I need better myself by seeking therapy, improve my functioning, reach normality, get a job at some point. I have an OT care coordinator because I was struggling with motivation to do daily tasks of looking after myself, difficulties in regulating emotions, previous self neglect.