I have been thinking to myself and I keep asking myself why I keep thinking this person is my salvation for happiness. I feel like I have an addiction to him. I try to enjoy my life but without this person, my life is empty. I'm probably bottling it all inside, I broke down in tears yesterday. The articles about letting him go don't help, they bring back painful memories of my ex. I'm trying to keep myself busy. I've started to do Japanese lessons online and I want to do more stuff that make me happy. I don't want this pain to last forever. Him having a gf and I don't, doesn't help. I somehow still wait for him. urghh I just wanted to vent. How can I live life like my old self again? It's like a part of me have been broken. I'm probably going round in circles about this.

Perhaps think more on ALL the things in life that fulfill you and make you happiest - then pursue those things. Taking Japanese lessons is a great first step!

Perhaps even create a list of happy things in life for yourself.... it is important to fill ourselves up in life and to be happy on our own, without dependence on another for our happiness. That is only a recipe for disappointment and pain.

So the key, even though you're staying busy which is great (!), is to fill your life up with all the things you love and enjoy the most. Then you can be perfectly happy all on your own.

(((((((Hugs))))))))