what an evening...like always.

I knew I had to clean the house a little more than usual because we had guests for a day so I did. I actually started before I went to work while my guests were still home.

Before I left for work I had already vacuum, dust, clean up the bedrooms and living room. Not the kitchen because they were having breakfast, nore the family room and guess room for they were still using them. When I came from work I finished the job and left dinner sitting on the stove for my husband. The kids and I took off to rescue two kittens we found in a rocky area where they didn't have food or water.

When we came back, he was vacuuming where I had already vacuum and said the house needed some cleaning. He had moved a couch from where it normally sits, and latter on lifted another couch to vacuum underneat. Then he asked me if the food on the stove was his dinner (quesadillas made with ham and three cheeses, home made refried beans and a mix of green vegetables cooked on butter) I said yes. Well, he said that wasn't real food, not to botter doing it for him since I don't cook right anyway (but I do!). Then he got upset because the birds outside made a mess with the dogs food. He said the dogs food shouldn't be outside, they don't need to eat all day. And the rest of the evening went along those lines.

Then he went outside and had a cigarrette and beer while I took care of the kids night routine. Once done, my 8 year old wanted to get up and talk to daddy. I told her she couldn't it was late and she needed to go to sleep, I told her daddy would come to her room soon and kiss her good night. She said: No, he won't. But he did come it, and she said all she wanted to do is ask him why he doesn't tuck her in any more like he used to (when she was little). It broke my heart.

gab

((((((Gloria))))))
My heart aches for you. Just use this terrible experience as a reason why you are choosing another path. I wish the best for you.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

Im so sorry! I know families are so difficult. Each person brings their own pain sometimes. Marraige has to be the greatest test of love. I will be praying for you and your husband-- especially for you as you are trying to protect your kids and yourself.