Is it normal to feel down about seasonal job ending?

I also think you are trying to justify that it was only seasonal...you were let go before your final day that was previously scheduled...so it does sound like you are trying to shift responsibility for your actions.

But we all make mistakes. It's okay. Just learn that in your next job you obey the rules regardless of what others are doing.

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I simply believed what she told me. I usually believe whatever people says unless they were blatantly lying. It wasn’t really obvious in this case.

If they said that you could apply for more seasonal work than they liked you. It's always sad to see a job go this is normal

What would they (employer) most likely list as my reason for leaving? I mean on official record.

That is hard to know...If they were being nice, they could have just noted that you were not selected to stay on, just for no real reason. They may have noted the cell phone use. Without knowing them and their culture, it is hard to know.

When I was let go from my last job, they actually told me they were listing it as my position being eliminated and me being laid off, which they lied about because they told unemployment something else. It's fine, it just added fuel to my lawsuit... lol

You could actually call and ask. But if they said you could come back for the next seasonal hiring, then they probably didn't write anything bad. That's what i would think.

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I would hope they woulda just said (on the record) I was just a seasonal if that was what they told me in person.

My current job said I quit when it was really my supervisor pressured me into quitting back in 2015. I was able to come back in 2016 bc all it said in the official record was that I voluntarily quit. lol

So I thought ***** over and I came to realize why I had a sh*tty attitude when I was confronted over the cell phone use. Ever since my supervisor at that fast food job started treating me like *****, I felt the need to constantly protect myself from everyone else who could potentially hurt me. I felt like everything was chaotic and just about anyone could randomly hurt me for no reason, or a sh*tty one. Consequently, I perceive EVERYTHING as a personal attack, even well meaning constructive criticism. And EVERYTHING pisses me off, including stuff that never woulda affected me before.

My defense was sarcasm and being condescending towards people. I'm still nice most of the time, but being a ****** became second nature that always shows unexpectedly, even when I wanna suppress it. Like the cell phone incident at my retail job, I wanted to have a good attitude, but I couldn't. It induced actual flashback of when my fast food supervisor hurt me.

At that retail job, my supervisor wasn't initially gonna let me go. She was initially only gonna ask me about the cell phone use. However, after I had a bad attitude and never apologized, it sealed my fate. Now that I think about it, I honestly don't know when protecting myself did me any good. I seemed to have also driven people away protecting myself. But how do I know nobody gonna hurt me again?

Ruby, you need to be honest with yourself and stop rewriting the story in your head. At the fast food job, you were stalking your supervisor. You were told to obey certain rules, and you did not, so you were let go. She did not treat you like ****. She treated you like an employee who failed to follow the rules after being repeatedly reminded of the rules. You were not the victim of an unfair supervisor. You were the victim of your own failure to follow instructions.

I am glad that you recognize that your own attitude got you fired, but do not shift responsibility for your actions and attitude onto someone else. You alone are responsible for your attitude.

In response to your question, you cannot know that people will hurt you or not hurt you. But you CAN act professionally, follow company policy, and change your behavior when you are instructed to. Those things will ensure that you do not get fired again for insubordination.

I hope you can understand this. If not, I fear you will continue to have this issue.

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