Feeling so horrible.

I am in my 20's and I have been living with my boyfriend for three years. Like most relationships it started off well but soon became rocky and unsetteling. There has been so much drama with police. He has hurt me (puncheding,scratching. One time i was walking down the stairs and he grabbed my food making me trip. It is such a typical abusive scenario.. I know i should just leave but its SO HARD to let go. Hes so nice and loving when we arent fighting and treats me so well. Then all of a sudden things will turn... I love him... But i know i need to leave and it KILLS me ... My anxiety is full blast 100% every morning contemplating the situation. I even went on stress leave from work... Im sooo scared to be alone. Its the worst feeling ever. My anxiety is out of control. Is anyone going through this.. Has anyone had to just get up and leave a toxic relationship??

My mom left my abusive alcoholic dad. He hurt her so bad she was hospitalized. She left because of me.

I know it takes strength. I saw it in my mom. You have what it takes. I can tell just from your post. Being alone is scary. Being stuck with someone who hurts you I think is much, much worse.

Please leave. I know that sounds simpler than it is, but your life matters.

Please leave as soon as possible.. you deserve so much better

You are worth so much more than this

Yes, I've left at toxic marriage. There were times where the loneliness under the same roof due to the rift from belittling statements, rages and silent treatment was so much worse than actually being alone from no longer living under the same roof.

I’ve left a toxic abusive relationship too.

Yes it was hard, but soooooo worth it.

Two things to remember logically (simply because you’re thinking emotionally)

1: being alone sucks, but it won’t kill you... whereas staying with your bf could actually kill you (psychologically, emotionally and physically)

2; The longer you stay with him, the less opportunity you have to meet someone worthy of you...

Value yourself, have faith in yourself, and give yourself some credit.

Times like these we have to think with our heads, not our hearts.

You're wasting your time with this guy, it's obvious he has no respect for you or your well-being.

Get out, you will feel so much better. It's hard, but you can do it. Would your coworkers support you? Going back to work and ditching him would be ideal. Why should he ruin your life like this?

I agree with everyone else. You know what you need to do and you can do it!

Thanks for all the support. Im feeling more motivated today.

I cant stand the silent treatments its so dramatic I just cant live like this anymore