Me...in a nut shell.

So there I was sitting very quietly reading my scriptures when about three people walked into the church. I greeted each one as they sat down, but it still seemed like something was missing. Ah ha my wife. Yes I went to church this morning without my wife (early service) not even sure if she went to the late service. I am trying to distance myself from her so that I can get my head screwed on straight. I think I have finally come to the source of all my problems...ready? It is me. I am in constant control of making myself happy and I should not really worry about what anyone else says. The way I feel is the way I think. Over these past three days of soul searching and self examination I realize that for the longest time I tried my hardest to make sure other people were happy and that I was accepted. This was very toxic for me because I did not take time for myself. I also realized that due to my anger I felt guilt as well. I love my wife dearlly and I hope that she knows it, I also love my kids. I would just like for her to see that I have made the positive changes that I should have made. I go see my T on Tuesday for a follow up, I am going to take all the materials I have been working on for him to take a look at things. I am a new man, I am not chained by others happiness. Now don't get me wrong I will not step on anybody so that I can be happy. But if one of my friends or my wife is not happy I am not going to think that it was because of something I did. Once that stress was lifted off of me I was able to breath again. I am able to be a better person. I am alive again. May God bless you all.

what a wonderful post!

Ya think? Oh wait thank you very much. I try to speak my heart more now than ever.

Lovely and inspiring story.

Good job dragonphoto. It's not always easy to come to conclusions about ourselves honestly and openly. Thank you for sharing what you have accomplished. It's quite inspiring!

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sabby