My Gf of over a year found my weird cuck fantasies for her.

Me and My girlfriend have had an amazing relationship the past year. We could both agree it’s been the best year of our lives. I made a big mistake of letting temptation get the best of me, i was curious i wanted to try something new, i regret all of it. She found out i sent pictures of her to other people online and talked about her with other people. I’m disgusted with myself and my choices and am doing anything i can to stop these temptations. I’ve signed up for therapy and am willing to do anything to make things good with her. I love her so much however she broke up with me the same night she found out. I have no idea where to go from here. I’m embarrassed, ashamed and feel like i lost the only thing that matters in this world. I’ve sent her countless apologies, owning up to what i did and telling her i’m gonna get help. She said she’s afraid of me and feels like she never knew the real me but that’s just not true. I don’t want to be like this or have these thoughts they are ruining my life. I would do anything to have my girlfriend back. Does anybody please have any advice on to how to go about this or any suggestions on how to stop having these thoughts. All i want is to love her and only her but it feels like i’ve completely ruined it.

I suggest you let her go and concentrate on your therapy

Dont keep dwelling on her. Seek therapy and look forward to a great relationship next time. It will happen!!

She will not come back to you, which is the correct thing. Continue your therapy and understand that sending pictures and discussing your intimate partner with others without their consent is unacceptable and never do it again.

I would work on yourself.

One can't claim to love their partner ("I love her so much") and do something like this - these actions do not reflect love but disrespect, at the very least. She deserves better than this.

Wanting her back is only focusing on what *you* want, which is what led to the breakup in the first place.. you did not think of her then either.

You need to seek help and focus on your improvement. Please leave this woman alone. Any sane woman would leave a man if he did what you did. You need to show her some respect by letting her go