[BittersweetMisery]

Lately I have felt that noone understands the severity of my issues, and what it feels like to go through them. I feel like they should almost go out of their way, even just a tad, to support me, and they don't. My marriage is failing, and I just got out of the hospital a few weeks ago, and just had lithium toxicity Monday, from which I am just recovering. Today some drama happened with the hubby that made him basically start ignoring me. He tends to not show emotion and it is really frustrating. I feel like I cannot connect with anyone, and have been crying for hours tonight because I feel so alone.

[Junerain]

The world seems to go on so cavalier, and I feel the same impression of the rest of the world, that it doesn't seem to understand the severity, of my issues.......... This world waits for one to develop self esteem on their own, does not help with our neediness, the entire stigma that is out there it makes us hold things in, but there is always PC and the people here, to be one's shining light......I understand about relating to someone who doesn't show emotion, and I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, and cannot relate to one who, holds it all in...especially in a marriage, the one relation which should go beyond one's walls, they put up.......sometimes tears are good, and flush everything out, how do you feel this morning?

[BittersweetMisery]

I am the exact same way... wearing my heart on my sleeve. I thought that each day was getting better but today was a bad day. I am hoping tomorrow will improve and that some of my suffering is due to withdrawal from my lithium toxicity. Thank you for asking, I appreciate it

[multipixie9]

Bittersweet,

Right now your stress levels are high and your biochemistry is wonky. This makes everything that is wrong seem like catastrophe.

Is there anyone you can trust to help you look at your life in a balanced way? Do you have a therapist or a friend? Sometimes we need someone to help us interpret our ife and see what is real.

I do not have Bipolar issues (I've got DID - its no fun either) but I've read that it does distort perceptions of reality when your chemicals are out of whack.

I'm truly sorry your marriage is another painful place, sadly, my marriage is much like you describe yours - my spouse is workaholic and churchaholic and very detached from our marriage and me. He believs dissociation doesn't exist as a problem...

I do think you are going to feel much better soon and will be able to carry on without feeling so down and overwhelmed.

Hang in there!

Leslie and the Pixies

[dolphinmkr44]

I do understand your feelings. I too am feeling alone and no one understands. I do know that days do get better. I wish you the best with your hubby. Sometimes it is so hard to get them to understand but keep working on yourself. Things do get better. I wish I had some good words of wisdom for you other than I understand 100%.

Take care.