Just a question

I have am having issues with mood swings (highs and lows) a lot lately. And I am starting to wander if every time my husband and I are intimate (mostly him :/ ) The next day I become pissy and just easly triggered. I was raped b4 and mistreated by most of my ex boyfriends. I am wandering I guess if this is a trigger from my ptsd and my moods just become shifty, or if it might be triggering for bipolar. I have have rapied cycling,mixed episodes and what not about 1-2 years ago. I have been going threw this a lot for the past few months. Any ideas let me know.

another thing is that I feel nothing when i talk about my rapes...Its not triggering for me to think of them . so how am i being triggered over something i don't care about and left in the past?... so i think.

(((((( Vinly Twine )))))))

I'm sorry that you were raped, I would think that the trauma of that would have affected you in some way. Numbness is common after such a trauma. Have you explained any of this to your husband?

Psychotherapy would be very good for this sort of trauma where you can talk about your feelings and feel better about yourself.

I have spoken with him about it..but he says that its my fault for not seeing it coming..and i should have been smarter. and I can't talk about my feelings about it because i don't have any. so maybe being completely numb about it might be odd..but maybe i just moved passed it..im not sure.

While this could very well be resonating your PTSD - but I also think it could be stirring up old ANGER you are holding toward your bf for him telling you it was your fault that you got raped.... I know I would be lit if my husband told me the sexual childhood abuse I suffered through was my fault.

i really don't know anymore...let alone feeling anything at all lately...just depressed,sad,and confused.