[aquagrl11]

so as you can see i'm new here i'm 19 years old and am a sophomore in college. i live with my boyfriend. i love him so much he means the world to me. but i feel like im slowly losing him. ive been going through a rough time in my life, and he is ALWAYS here for me. but i just feel like i'm bringing him down with me...and it makes me feel awful he keeps on telling me he hates seeing me so upset like this and wishes everyday for me to be better and that it hurts him to see me like this. he is a senior this year and will be graduating this spring. i just don't know how to handle all this, i'll still be in college and he will be out but i love him so much i don't want to lose him. i'm crying right now with the thought that i could lose him and i would be by myself. aahh

[Rhapsody]

((( HUGS ))) -

First off STOP and BREATHE!
Now think... what you are saying sounds more like a feeling from with in you and not actual reality of the situation at hand - your bf seems to honestly care for you and it doesn't sound as though he is going any where... you can rest a sure and feel safe that he is still in your life.

[RomanSunburn]

Hey aquagrl! Welcome to PC!!

Now, I agree with Rhapsody... Slow down and breathe!!
I also worry about pushing my boyfriend away by bringing him down with me. What we're doing is being irrational. It may not seem like it, but it's true! Your boyfriend sounds like a very caring person that isn't going to leave you in the dust. Maybe you should try making a list of all the things you say that are negative in your head about why you think you're pushing him away. Then try to counter them with examples of how he's supportive and caring and isn't going to leave you. You can always ask him to help you with this, and from the little that you've said, it sounds like he'd be willing to do so!

Good luck, and I hope you feel better soon. PM me anytime if you want to talk some more!

Ro