dependent.

without him
im scared
of what ill do.
hes the only thing
thats keeping me going
and when hes slipped away completely
ill have nothing

its supposed to be the cowards way out right?

takes a lot of balls to pull the trigger. to swallow the pill. to tie the noose
i cant

i dont know
without him
how i can keep going

It can be damn tough bananas

But you CAN keep going. Don't think about next week, or tomarrow, focus on right now. Get through the moment, move onto the next, and so forth.

Try very hard not to focus on what you don't have, and instead keep your eye on what you do have. As the pain slowly eases, focus on short-term future goals for yourself. In my experience, the pain waxes and wanes. There are incredibly tough times, and (thankfully!) others that aren't too crazy in comparison.

Take care!

Shez

i'm so sorry you are feeling this way, bac. but the thing you need to remind yourself of is that you are a unique and wonderful person in this world of ours. there is no one just like you. that makes you very special even tho u feel like your value depends on him. focus on yourself and all the qualities you have. it is helpful to know that our own happiness does not derive itself from others but from our own selves. then you begin to realize that you are what can make u happy, not other ppl. hope you will keep us posted and thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share your thoughts with us. we do care about u and u do matter.