[sweepy62]

Kinda awkward yet funny lol I went in with huge butterflies in my stomach and I disclosed that I was nervous then I got upset that someone new sat next to him but he was acting normal towards me. I did notice a minor shift of emotion I noticed myself for a split second looking at his crotch I did wear shorts today and I crossed my legs kind of flirty like for a split second but then I went back to feeling like a kid and him a dad go figure I have NO CLUE it's shifting a little from seeing him like a sad to having a bit of romantic curiosity I am so confused

[growlycat]

It can be very confusing ... with my cbt T i go back and forth too.

I find him really electric in persona and I'm really attracted to him, but often he feels like an encouraging parent. He really feels like a parent when he shows a little sadness for me in how uncomfortable my anxiety is to live with.

I'm just trying to trust he knows what's going on and knows what to do. I'm really trying to keep it in check, I could easily embarrass myself.

Hang in there! maybe it will pass???

[sweepy62]

thx growlycat i already told him briefly about the dad transference last week and so him and i and my individual t are supp0se to meet next week at my individual session my individual t told me to tell her if other feelings came up but i am ashamed to tell her about these brief romantic feelings he doesnt know either omg this is getting more confusing by the minute and you know i dont want to be dismissed out of the ptsd group therapists can be touchy about transference