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Old Sep 19, 2017, 11:36 PM
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So... T is a father figure to me. But I'm having weird and confusing fantasies lately... Is it ET or what?

Here are some of my thoughts: (TMI trigger)
- Do I want to hug him? - Yes!
- Do I want to kiss him on the cheek? - Yes!
- Do I want to kiss his lips? - Not sure. Yes?
- Do I want to have sex with him? - Not sure. No?
- Do I want him to be my boyfriend/husband? - NO WAY
- Do I want to go out on a date with him? - NO WAY

So I have no idea what do I feel. Any thoughts please?
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Old Sep 19, 2017, 11:40 PM
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You are too hard on yourself! Therapy brings up all kinds of feelings. Some come and go. I felt all of the above plus contradictory feelings like repulsion and feeling like he is too much like me. Overall I am fond of him m but sexual impulses arise and they freak me out too. It's just therapy being weird.
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Old Sep 19, 2017, 11:46 PM
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You are too hard on yourself! Therapy brings up all kinds of feelings. Some come and go. I felt all of the above plus contradictory feelings like repulsion and feeling like he is too much like me. Overall I am fond of him m but sexual impulses arise and they freak me out too. It's just therapy being weird.
You're right, I blame myself and think I'm bad because of these thoughts...
I think I should tell him, but I'd DIE of embarrassment. And he'd hate me
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Old Sep 19, 2017, 11:53 PM
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It is hard to talk to t about but worth it. You will feel relief after that hard conversation.
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Old Sep 20, 2017, 12:08 AM
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I've similar feelings about my T. I've read that it's due to unmet childhood needs becoming unmet adulthood needs.

I think my feelings for T are disgusting because "I am disgusting".

I told T and she said my feelings aren't the problem, but my self disgust is.

She and I talked about what I didn't get growing up, and what I still don't have.

I like to remind myself of these great posts by Attachment Girl:

https://boundaryninjatales.com/2012/...-transference/

https://boundaryninjatales.com/2011/...-really-arent/
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Old Sep 20, 2017, 08:05 AM
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well if hugging is that, then I am in trouble, I hug him every session and I crave it sometimes between sessions

otherwise I can not imagine him in any way but causal/friend like, I think I'd quit if I had ET.

i have no idea if what you have is but I assume its probably not? doesn't sound too sexual etc to me.
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Old Sep 29, 2017, 04:33 PM
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A T will almost always put these things down to some sort of transference, or a mixture of a couple. Half of me thinks; "yea, its a good way to find start points for exploration". The other half of me thinks; "nah, its a load of b.s so they can wriggle out of any awkward feelings towards them, or between them and the client."
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Old Sep 30, 2017, 07:57 AM
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Feelings aren't right or wrong, they simply are...and should be honored.
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Old Oct 04, 2017, 10:34 AM
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What if you answer yes to all of them!!! Looks like I'm done for
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