So I learnt that if you go on Facebook and write in the search bar "photos of Bob Kale" for example. The photos they are tagged on that made public can be seen.

Anyway I did that accept I looked up my thearpist .
I saw photos of them and then probably two days later I did it again and then the photos where gone.

I felt rejected and angry!
Because last week with my session with my thearpist they didn't apologise to me
about this - so what happened in one of the sessions I told my therapist "It feels like I love you" then they said "You don't know me" I felt a huge sense of shame and guilt all over.
I spoke to my therapist about this and they said to me "well that wasn't my experience, I remembered telling you it's normal and how it's expected " I said yes I do remember that, but I couldn't tell them that was one session the next fellow sessions was you freaking out.
I mean they told me once "You didn't look at the photos of my family and friends ?" I felted really insulted because I'm thinking why would I do that? I be looking at strangers Facebook page.

So now I feel angry but anxious because they told me last session they leaving the public health system and how they told me I can still be public health system with my keyworker and meds and see the. but can't have thearpist at public health system.
They went on to say how they be on holiday after graduation because my thearpist was finishing off there Masters.
I'm quite confused, because if my thearpist some how knew I looked there photos up on Facebook they might get rid of me. I'm actually terrified just the feelings is dreadful. Plus how would they know I looked up there photos on search bar what I explain above.

I know I'm going through this love transference towards my thearpist but I feel like some freak to them.

[nicoleflynn]

You could have said......I love what/who i perceive you to be. shame on t's who say thiing to shame you. they are supposed to accept and be willing discuss ALL of your feelings.

TeaFruit, you have been talking about this therapist here on PC for a while and from most of your reports, I feel he is way too inexperienced and immature to handle you well. Perhaps you stick with him and obsess about him at times because he kinda reflects the very problems you have yourself, in your life? It just does not sound like he is helping you very much to move forward.

Originally Posted by Xynesthesia

TeaFruit, you have been talking about this therapist here on PC for a while and from most of your reports, I feel he is way too inexperienced and immature to handle you well. Perhaps you stick with him and obsess about him at times because he kinda reflects the very problems you have yourself, in your life? It just does not sound like he is helping you very much to move forward.

Could you explain to me what you mean by "he kinda reflects the very problems you have yourself, in your life"?

Originally Posted by nicoleflynn

You could have said......I love what/who i perceive you to be. shame on t's who say thiing to shame you. they are supposed to accept and be willing discuss ALL of your feelings.

Well I'm left confused , because they say we've discussed this before and this is your experience and my experience and I'm thinking but I'm talking about the other sessions after that and how you freaked out and told me it was scary etc.

[TeaVicar?]

They can't know that you've looked up photos on Facebook and even if they Could, it's their responsibility to check their privacy settings. Locking down your account is not difficult.

They don't sound very containing in the way they respond to your feelings. The more I think about it, the more I think that most of them are clueless and winging it when it comes to intense transference, even the more experienced ones. If you're seeing someone who hasn't even been in therapy themselves, I would run far far away because it's likely they don't be able to identify their own 'stuff.

Hugs to you, it's a sh1tty place to be.

Originally Posted by TeaFruit

Could you explain to me what you mean by "he kinda reflects the very problems you have yourself, in your life"?

I just recalled some of your other posts where you wrote about your challenges in personal relationships. And how this therapist seems quite insecure and uncomfortable when you express your feelings for him and yet you see him as "the only man present for me" (your words from another thread). You are choosing someone who is obviously not going to make it easier for you and stick with him in spite of it?