[Someone87]

I was doing well with not injuring myself, but the voices telling me to do so has gotten to be too much. One voice in addition tells me to stockpile my meds to OD. I'm getting deeply disturbed by the Commands and am at a loss of what to do. I do ECT which I want to stop and am seriously considering it. My psychiatrist told me to make an appointment for med management but I don't know that I can trust myself with them. And I am afraid if I'm honest they will try to hospitalize me again.

[Ash0198]

Don't listen to them. I did everything u just said and I've ended up in the hospital....heh :/. Other then that make sure with someone as much as possible and distraction distraction distraction. And please tell ur pdoc everything about the voices....but maybe be subtle? And don't say too much I guess. Just tell him/her that ur struggling with strong command voices ATM and see what happens? I dunno. Just a few suggestions

Be honest. Doc can't help you unless he knows what's really going on. Hang in there! Hugs coming your way!

I agree with everyone else, thus far...
Be honest! Even if you do end up having to go back to the hospital, it may be for the best. Your doctor only has your best interests in mind and they want to help, but you have to help them to help you.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Someone87I'm aching for you.

Fear of treatment vs disaster without... I know this rock-and-a-hardplace situation so well.

I hope you have a caring medical team that deserves your trust. We are so dependent on them to look after our interests, and sometimes it is so difficult to trust them, especially when our paranoid fears (and bad experiences) tell us to do otherwise.
As for voices that clearly don't have a good track record of looking after you, I'd do my best to trust the guys in the official uniforms, even if hospitals suck.

Hold on tight.

TS

[DePressMe]

As hard as it is to reveal the intense emotions and thoughts I have I've found it to be better than the extreme danger of not telling the truth to my pdoc. As I say this I am also struggling with the same issue because I have a new pdoc who only spends 10 mins with me every 3rd month for med management. There is not much time to talk. I'm in the process of getting back with my old psychiatrist because he spent much more time with me. I hope you are able to work this out........just like I hope I can work it out for me. Well, at least you know you are not alone--if that helps any.....D

[bluecupcake]

You should talk to your Pdoc about this and be honest even if it means hospitalization. They may have to adjust your meds so that you hear these voices giving you commands less. Hang in there

[Mountainman2013]

Originally Posted by Someone87

I was doing well with not injuring myself, but the voices telling me to do so has gotten to be too much. One voice in addition tells me to stockpile my meds to OD. I'm getting deeply disturbed by the Commands and am at a loss of what to do. I do ECT which I want to stop and am seriously considering it. My psychiatrist told me to make an appointment for med management but I don't know that I can trust myself with them. And I am afraid if I'm honest they will try to hospitalize me again.

Don't obey them. I stopped taking my meds and within two days i felt my insanity slithering back into my life.