[Deershire]

Planning to move out when you live in a group home can be mentally scarring. Everyone's against me. The staff, my therapist,my case worker, and now even my nurse practitioner. The one guy I thought I would have to fight on this who quite frankly doesn't seem to give a damn is my pdoc.I like him he let's me do whatever I want usually.
My friends are all for me moving as long as I'm lonely and don't let my boyfriend come live with me, but they are a little afraid of him. I'm not. I'm madly in love.
He's away for awhile and I'm so lonely it physically hurts. I have schizoaffective disorder and my hallucinations have been worse with him gone. He somehow keeps them in check. I have been highly depressed to the point of thinking of hurting myself. I have supportive friends and the number to crisis care but sometimes it's not enough you know?
Sometimes I get so tired of living I think it would be better to be admitted to hospital. But then I think, will that effect my move?, will they make me eat? I've been told I could go to state hospital. Is it true? Then the same questions as above. I spent most of today trying to sleep. In fact that sounds like a good idea. Bye

[gayleggg]

I don't know the answer about the state hospital, but in reading your post I see you as very depressed. Maybe the others are right and you are not ready to be on your own if it means that you will be alone. It sounds like you might be safer in the group home. Maybe it would be better to wait until your boyfriend was back at home to support you emotionally.

However, if you are considering hurting yourself then the hospital would be a safe place for you to be.

(((Deershire))))