warned of possible hospitalization

I saw my case worker today and we were talking about me wanting to move out of my group home into an apartment. She brought up my recent lapses in judgement, reckless behaviour, and hallucinations. And told me I have been hospitalized twice in the last 6 months for some pretty serious stuff I guess, according to her that makes it more likely for that if I were to go back to the hospital, I could be sent to the state hospital. I live in Ohio. Does anyone know if that's true? I can't afford to waste time at another hospital, I'm trying to get out of this group home. I am feeling overwhelmed and its making my symptoms worse and I'm afraid to even tell anyone or ask for help now

i moved out of my group home, it was good at first. Hallucinations are my only issue though. I keep myself under control even through the attacks. I use multiple ways of battling them to be quiet. I isolate the locations on or in my body they react to me imposing mentally on, and then use mental imagination/focus commands and external objects like canvas, soaps on walls and wax, copper winds, magnets, i find tinfoil temporary fixes that make it worse. Anyway i got a room to rent, within a few weeks, hallucinations if you call them that became very real, and very freakin scary. i got kicked out. luckily my family let me live home for a while, but then diabetes set in, and the pain was excruciating in my arm. I ended up back in the hospital psych ward, though it was good because i wouldnt have gotten a "lidocaine patch" for the pain as the hospital emergency room did nothing, just waited for me to freak out to let them suck the government tit for money. i met a patient who suggested the patch. Hospitals will poison you slowly, hallucinations are a challenge to your will to live and stay sane through them. you can do it, i did. be safe, dont harm anyone or yourself, be scientific, make it boring for the hallucinations. and diminsish the sound in your head by trying safely different blocks and energy pushing. right now i randomly hear very quiet random calls to me, im on clozapine which cancels the crazy loud attacks, and the soaps/waxes other stuff lowers the resonances of the voices.

I also moved out of a group home (sort of) and into an apartment with a roommate in November of last year. I have had well over 10 hospitalizations in the last 36 months. But none in the last 14 months. Anyways the first few months were all good. But then around the beginning of the year I started having problems again. Problems taking my meds as I am supposed too, sleep etc. Now I am dealing with some pretty vivid hallucinations that I unbelievably disturbing. But I keep them to myself for fear of hospitalization or freaking out my roomie. A lot of paranoia too since I live in the "best" (sarcasm) part of town. We have an alarm system but I think it just makes things worse. I don't like loud noises. Anyway. That's my story. I wouldn't worry about going to the state hospital. I live in Pennsylvania.

i hate group home living, it also, made my symptoms amplified. i don't live in ohio however you could do some research online to find out if what your case worker said is true. you know they're just trying to keep the group home filled, 'cause then everyone gets dollars in their pockets. i don't know you or what has happened to you.

it seems to be a growing trend to threaten patients with state hospital stays, they did this to me as well, i don't take being threatened too lightly and it makes me become aggressive. i am tired of doctors/staff doing this to patients. to me it just seems they are trying to shut us up to take our meds and stand in line and be quiet. "don't question authority", oh bs. i've got plenty of questions, that is what has made my road rough, but i wouldn't have it any other way, i believe in standing up for yourself and others, why should anyone be silenced and told what to do? i've always said "figure it out yourself". i've come along way in my "recovery"; however many would disagree and that is their problem not mine. for me personally, mental health "help" is about self-discovery, knowing yourself and how your own thought process works. it is not about "here take this and shut up and don't ask questions, just take it and be happy". i want to know WHY i am like this, not, "HOW TO MAKE IT STOP". i don't care, it's never going to stop - so i am learning how to live with it. shoot.

for me, i went against all doctors orders. i quit meds, i quit therapy, i got my own apartment in the ghetto (only place i could afford) and i made it work. I MADE IT WORK because i wanted to be on my own. it is hard, i had no mental health support or financial support - just my ssi check, i struggled, i went to food banks and donation bins for clothes, washed my clothes at the local shelter. doesn't matter, i made it work because i wanted to be on my own. my point is, if you want it bad enough, you'll make it happen. don't ever let anyone tell you "you can't"; because thats just keeping you down. anyone can do anything they want to do - positive or negative. it's all about perspective. nothing is ever "that bad".

anyway, i didn't mean for this to get so long, ahah. apologies.