[Kuras]

It's a curious thing and I wonder if some others can relate to my perspective. While I struggle with many aspects of my psychosis, there are also certain hallucinations/presences that I've come take solace and comfort in. There's a regular presence that I see as a guiding and benevolent force in my daily life. He helps me in many ways and aids me in pushing through stress and other more hateful and damaging hallucinations. The music that plays around me semi-regularly also helps keep me calm at certain points. It's why I've explained to my pdoc that I don't want my AP doses too high.

[leetulturtle]

Hi there, yes I can relate. I often hear music I like and it's like my life has a soundtrack. I'm a musician so it kind of makes sense! I also have a really reassuring voice that just tells me I'm doing the right thing - I actually wish that voice was around a bit more! It seems to come and go at random but when it's around I'm usually a little more self-assured.

[Kuras]

Very cool. The music doesn't tend to be as consistent but he's most always with me to some degree or another. I feel more isolated and uncomfortable otherwise.

[ninjasm]

I really miss a lot of aspects to the voices I would hear... they were very evil - but somehow they were also my creativity and motivators. I feel a little lost without them.

[OliverB]

This is one of the reason why I don't take antipsychotics, I need my voices and entities.

[CognitoSchiz1989]

Originally Posted by ninjasm

I really miss a lot of aspects to the voices I would hear... they were very evil - but somehow they were also my creativity and motivators. I feel a little lost without them.

This hits the nail on the head for me. I am the same way. Most of my hallucinations are evil (I do have a few good presences too though). But ever since I have gotten on my anti-psychotic they have been taken away. Good and bad voices/presences. I cannot really pin point why I miss them (i am working that out in therapy) but I want them back desperately.

[mindwrench]

When you are a certain way for most of your life, it's damn hard to think that something isn't very wrong when the AP turns off or turns down so much.

[Kuras]

Important thing for me is keeping my moods stabilized. I'm fairly comfortable with most of my normal hallucinations. But if I shift into mania, my AP dosing has to increase significantly to help counteract the shitstorm my head tends to turn into. That's when I start losing what I don't want to.

[Biteplate]

I recently started invega and it got rid of the different "worlds" I live in. This has been a struggle not having that comfort zone to live in. Now I feel stuck with my paranoia and hallucinations.

My manias were a source of creativity and productivity. I also used to have a hallucination named Kito who was nice and comforting.

[ninjasm]

I'm much better off with them gone (well, less). I try to remember that the voices are all in my head - and just because they are dialed-down with the AP meds that doesn't mean that my creativity and motivation are gone for good... I just need to relearn how to access them. I was thinking that maybe I need to start forcing myself into creative behaviors like drawing... I would be a true force of awesomeness if I could hit my old levels of creativity but not have the massive amount of disorganization. Hmm. That's a little motivating right there. It'll be a chore at first, for sure.

[Kuras]

Originally Posted by escapeartist

My manias were a source of creativity and productivity. I also used to have a hallucination named Kito who was nice and comforting.

The one I live with doesn't really have a name. I understand that he's not "real" but I still consider him a really good friend. I honestly don't know how I'd be affected if he wasn't around anymore.

Some of my delusions are comforting. Even if the messages are threatening I feel privileged to have the warning. I'm glad this information is shared with me so I can prepare.

[StewieGG]

I think my mania can make me very productive and motivated. It can push me to do things I'd never usually do, which can be bad but at times very good for me. Sometimes my meds make me feel like I am completely numb and void of emotion, and I sort of miss the extremely strong emotions I feel when I'm not taking anything. Sometimes not always.

[neodoering]

Originally Posted by Kuras

It's a curious thing and I wonder if some others can relate to my perspective. While I struggle with many aspects of my psychosis, there are also certain hallucinations/presences that I've come take solace and comfort in. There's a regular presence that I see as a guiding and benevolent force in my daily life. He helps me in many ways and aids me in pushing through stress and other more hateful and damaging hallucinations. The music that plays around me semi-regularly also helps keep me calm at certain points. It's why I've explained to my pdoc that I don't want my AP doses too high.

I do not experience comfort in my symptoms. The closest to a continuous symptom that I have is the Imaginary Girlfriend, and most of the time she's an evil *****. In the past I would hear voices representing my family members, offering comfort when the symptoms were really bad, but that hasn't occurred in years now. I am left with voices who are con-men, inquisitors, torturers, users, and criminals of various sorts. I welcome high AP doses in an effort to control these bastards.

[Kuras]

I'm sorry for your experiences. Everyone's condition is different. I suppose it's why my experience (with certain hallucinations, no where near all) is something I find rather interesting/strange. Hallucinations aren't something that most people would ever think to be of any sort of emotional help.

[4ureyesonly]

i can totally relate. most of my voices were mean but at one point i did hear a voice that identified themselves as god and it was very reassuring and calming. it made me feel like everything was going to be okay.

[Teddy Bear]

I hallucinate teddy bears. One inparticular is a hospital bear. He is very comforting. Also dead people who I knew.