[neodoering]

Wow, the last few months have really been intense. My paranoia has been acting up on a daily basis, often several times a day. Every time a cop car goes by, I know they're looking for me. Homeless people are following me around so they can tell my imaginary girlfriend where I go every day, and some homeless people are planning to attack or even kill me. The media are spewing out false stories to keep me in the dark, and all the web sites and newspapers I read have been doctored to give a false view of what is going on in the world. Donald Trump is trying to drum up support for a nuclear war, and 9/11 never happened.

These fantasies and delusions get really involved and go back like twenty years. I have a whole false history worked out.

Does anyone else experience such paranoia? That the whole world is keeping them in the dark? And so forth?

[LacunaCoiler]

I dunno if I would say they're keeping me in the dark in regards to world events per say, but they're keeping me in the dark when it comes to the shadow people's organization as a whole. They don't tell me who's involved and how far their reach really spreads and that starts to make me suspicion of everyone (wife, therapist, and shrink included). Sometimes I feel like they're changing things to keep me from catching on to them but I dunno if it's re-writing history on purpose or just to keep me off their tail.

Luckily, these paranoid delusions don't happen often now that I'm on the right meds. Though small burst of paranoia do pop up now and again.

[franz kafka]

Right now I'm struggling with some paranoia. My mind is causing me to recognize strangers and be unable to tell who I really know and who I don't know. So I will often recognize strangers and wonder why they aren't acknowledging me. As a result I think there must be some kind of conspiracy to ignore me and monitor me.

I still have some insight and can tell this sounds a bit crazy, but I can't help the visual misperceptions. It's so hard to ignore them.

They are keeping you in the dark, you are seeing the truth about many things. I don't know about the homeless people and if you are not sure either, please tell someone about this but the news is lies, it's all a ruse and they aren't even trying to hide the bullchit anymore. They use to be more clever but now I think they are getting a kick at how obvious they are being about it all. Donald Trump a president? He's a reality TV star for goodness sakes....a "personality" put before the people to judge and distract.

There is not much we can do about it all however. It's hard not to obsess on the falsehood of the entire planet but if you can't change it, trying not to stress about it is best. It's not paranoia in my eyes.

Please stay safe.

[still_crazy]

are you stressed? you were homeless for a while, right? Maybe all that low status and terror left a mark that's gonna take some time to heal?

I ask because I was terrorized by a small town when I was low status and such. I think its part of the reason I experience paranoia now, part of the reason why I do better on a tranquilizer than other psych drugs, etc. I read somewhere that terror--and being low status, stigmatized, poor, homeless, etc. can lead to absolute terror--is at the core of the psychotic experience for a lot of people, especially in "Schizophrenia."

Anyway, ElsaMars has made some good points. The way I see it (lately...) may be "mentally ill," but a lot of other people around me are straight up vicious and genuinely crazy.

[Nix]

I have had a lot of debilitating paranoia where, at times, I couldn't leave the house, go to the post office, or have regular normal interactions with people.

For me it's been a lot of thinking that people in my everyday life are placing objects in my path or speaking in ways to leave me coded messages, removing objects just to bother me, or ganging up on me in covert ways to hurt me.

It's also been a lot of thinking that the New World Order is controlling everyone like puppets and trying to kill me or harm me in some way.

It's gotten a lot better with medication although sometimes I still have flare ups, as someone else already mentioned above was their common experience. I'm sorry you're dealing with this. It is certainly no fun.

[Bbop]

Originally Posted by LacunaCoiler

I dunno if I would say they're keeping me in the dark in regards to world events per say, but they're keeping me in the dark when it comes to the shadow people's organization as a whole. They don't tell me who's involved and how far their reach really spreads and that starts to make me suspicion of everyone (wife, therapist, and shrink included). Sometimes I feel like they're changing things to keep me from catching on to them but I dunno if it's re-writing history on purpose or just to keep me off their tail.

Luckily, these paranoid delusions don't happen often now that I'm on the right meds. Though small burst of paranoia do pop up now and again.

Wow, you've lived in my minds reality!

[Bbop]

Originally Posted by phoenix31

I have had a lot of debilitating paranoia where, at times, I couldn't leave the house, go to the post office, or have regular normal interactions with people.

For me it's been a lot of thinking that people in my everyday life are placing objects in my path or speaking in ways to leave me coded messages, removing objects just to bother me, or ganging up on me in covert ways to hurt me.

It's also been a lot of thinking that the New World Order is controlling everyone like puppets and trying to kill me or harm me in some way.

It's gotten a lot better with medication although sometimes I still have flare ups, as someone else already mentioned above was their common experience. I'm sorry you're dealing with this. It is certainly no fun.

Before I got help recently, I couldn't even open my blinds in the house. Which ment I could not leave the house!