wierd

when furniture can jump ouut from the wall at you but then its stilkl therre in the same spot. Perceptttual hullucination guess it was cool in the 70s when it wass selfff-induced but im getting too old for this

Aw man, Kathyanita. Is there any other medication you can take to stop the hallucinations? That would drive me nuts! (ps -- funny about the self-induced ones from the 70s!)

Kathyanita:

I feel for you. It's not a fun place to be. It's different when it's self induced

Atleast then you have some semblence of control over it. I agree with LMo, is there a medication you can take that would help with the hallucinations or are you already on something that just isn't working?

Take care of yourself. I hope you don't mind my concern.

Kimberly.

see dr e wanted to increase antipsychotic x4 but if i do then I cant keep from dissoiatingg also- i have tto be alert enough to watch
no i m happy for the feedddbaack sorry about my typing

Kathyanita -- you're married, right? Would you feel comfortable having your husband talk to your pdoc?

no! hee jusst getds me locked up. and hes the one signed me up to be in clinical study of ECT went on for 2 years (they paaaaaid 50 dollars a montthh) hell no he nuts!

oh wow! ok! well, please let me/us know if there is anything we can do... we're here

thanks- im kinda financially trapped like a lot of women get to be- need the insurance. But he doesnt get it and he doesnt want to know - I gotto do this on my own and get independant. One day.

what about your kids? are they old enough to help?

Kathyanita:

I'm so sorry you have so much to deal with. I can understand completely where your feelings of frustration are coming from.

It seems that your meds are at cross-odds with what you want to be doing, which is not dissociating. Is there anything that you would like to talk about or any way you can avoid the triggers for dissociation ? If so, could it be possible to up your dosage of anti-psychotic safely or is that an impossibility ? I feel so much for you right now. Poor dear soul.

If there is anything you need, just let me know. I'll be around.

Take care of you and stay safe,
Kimberly.

Kathy sorry to hear you are having these disturbances. maybe talking to your pdoc would be helpful -- sooner rather than later is better, so they don't get any worse. Make that call!

p.s. you are right it was so much more "fun" when self-induced. I can't take any of that stuff anymore though, my paranoia and apocalypse heeby-jeebies go out the roof on it.

Mal- thank you for offering good humor and a friendly response. I see that you understand and it makes me smile to feel it.
LMo, Kimberly, am comforted by the concern you make me unavoidably aware of here. Thanks so much for that. I went to dr. yesterday and took med increase last night. You see by my improved typing that I slept last night! Such relief to get some rest.

Kathyanita:

That's great about the sleep. Still doing okay?

Take care of yourself,
Kimberly.