Roll Call Four

Indeed!

I love the little gum ball machine! Not mine though. I found it in a book in a thrift shop. I can copy, but can I create?

News update: I'm going back to Canada for a month or two while I sort out my immigration paperwork. I should be online more after that.

So many issues come to mind: how will I deal with my mother? I still haven't told her I'm off the drugs. I will depend on her a lot when I'm there (I can't drive, and we live in the rural) and I think she will get suspicious.

Oh man, med changes suck. Let's hope they do wait for the term break before you have to go through all that.
One thing comes to mind, though: do your mood changes track closely to your period? If they do, BC could help without all the crazy side-effects . . . Only saying this 'cause mine do (though the BC hasn't helped but I think that is from a **** doctor not willing to work with me more than anything; I've known others who had much better results).

I hope it goes ok with your mother. I thought she admitted before that it was the meds that made you so unwell and look stereotypically 'crazy' rather than the sz?? I'd hoped that would allow you to be honest with her and her to be okay with that.

No my mood swings are a lot slower (over a couple of months) so I don't think they're related to my period. It's a good thought though. I'm sorry BC doesn't help with your mood swings. Have you thought about trying something different; there's loads of different types of BC out there!

I'm really trying to wait until term ends, but I've got 2 pieces of coursework to write during the holiday so there's no 'perfect' time to be out of action for a few weeks which sucks. I've got a test tomorrow and my brain feels like it's wading through thick treacle Then I've got 2 exams coming up in a few weeks and then the 2 pieces of coursework to do so it's non-stop til the middle of January Still I've got to just keep trying to put one foot in front of the other until then. I can't afford to fall to pieces...

*Willow*

Hi guys, checking in. How is everybody? I am okay. Had better days and worse lol. I hope everyone is having a good one. Yours truly, Lightbulb7

I'm doing well today. Thanks!

u r welcome, costello. I appreciate your note! Take care!

Ty, Costello. Mutual support very helpful, I agree! Hang in there!

I know the mania is so difficult but at times when depressed or flat for a long time, I actually find myself questioning myself as to whether or nnot a bout of mania would be welcomed at that time? Short, sweet, and non-destructive of course! In my dreams, I guess!!!!

Shay!!!!!!Where are you? Long time, no hear. Come visit today, if you can.

-Fleeing Bellocq

I got a wicked new tat' I want to show you!

Hi guys!

I got 80% in my statistics test on Monday, which I was quite impressed with as I didn't do much revision Had a lazy day today. Only did about 2 hours work and slept the rest of the day. I've no idea why I'm so sleepy! I've decided to apply for a voluntary position within mental health like befriending or something to try and improve my CV and to focus on something other than myself for a bit. I used to volunteer at a youth group at home and that was a good distraction. The application process seems quite tough though so fingers crossed I get an interview.

Hope everyone else is doing well

*Willow*

Congratulations, Willow!

Congrats, Willow!

Have to go out and get bags of ice to prepare for this stinkin' hurricane. Ugh.

Uh oh! Hope you make it through safely, cyber!

Still thinking about you, cyber. I keep hearing updates about your storm, and I think about you every time.

Today I'm going to stitch the model for my first cross stitch kit. I need to get it done today.

Thanks for your concern, costello. Supposedly it's heading straight for us! Basically, there's nothing one can do but ride it out because it's such a wide spread storm so trying to outdrive it doesn't seem logical in my opinion. The thing that worries me is that I'm about a half hour from the beach which really doesn't offer much of an inland cushion. I know what it's like to be without power for a few days and it isn't fun. The whole house is electric, right down to the sump pump for the well so when we lose power we also lose running water. This is crazy stuff!

Heading into chaos with a clear head is very different than from experiencing inner chaos and no insight. There's a calm before the storm (literally and figuratively).

[quote=cybermember;2669257] The thing that worries me is that I'm about a half hour from the beach which really doesn't offer much of an inland cushion. I know what it's like to be without power for a few days and it isn't fun. quote]

Hope all goes well till it passes.. we are inland about 2 hours so we will not feel much of the effects, but we are praying for all on coast lines that it will pass with out much turmole to anyone.

hold on to your briches as it passes, will keep you in our prayers!

Hope you'll manage the story without too much bother cybermember. It totally get what you mean about the calm before the storm. Don't seem to get that with MI

Good luck with your cross stitch costello. Hope it went ok

I'm struggling right now. My thoughts are slowing down and getting muddled and it's hard to type, and I'm so so exhausted all the time. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to keep going into Uni at this rate. Even when I'm physically there, I'm not mentally there so I'm not learning anything. I'm wondering if I should start taking the quetiapine/Seroquel early? If I'm not going into Uni then I may as well start a med that may help? And maybe it'll only knock me out for a week rather than a month - I could miss a week and catch up, but a month will be too difficult. IDK. If I could predict how long it would knock me out then I could better decide what to do. Anyone with a functioning crystal ball out there?!

(I hope this makes sense - I've triple checked it)

*Willow*

Sorry. Not here. Maybe you should consult with your advisers - your mom and your pdoc

Thanks, Willow. I've finished it, and I hate it. Grrr! I'm still going to try to list it for sale anyway. Maybe someone will like it enough to buy it. I'm also going to start working on my second kit. I'm trying not to let myself chicken out. If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.

So now my state has issued a state of emergency. Great. We have a hurricane coming in from the east and two cold fronts coming in from the west. Hmm, which do I prefer, a snow storm or heavy rain and crazy wind? Or maybe if we get real lucky we can have both! Not!

Willow, perhaps it would be a good idea to start Seroquel now than later if you are struggling. Just know, that it is highly sedating so perhaps you can take it at night if your pdoc is willing/can prescribe it that way for you.

Costello, I admire your perseverance and I'm sure with each project/kit is better than the last. Hey, you don't know unless you try, right?

Prayers are up for you, cybermember. I hope you will be safe if the hurricane hits.

For me however, am kinda mixed. The only thing that is keeping me together is this game that was announced a few weeks ago. I am also still interested in building models. It just helps me. As for the game, I have literally been waiting for this kind of game for over 15 years already and if you include all the technology in the game (such as virtual reality and the graphics) I have been waiting for my entire life.

So, that is the "up" part of the situation. The rest is down like the stock market. Mom needs surgery #98735897937589 next year. As you know from past years (she gets at least 1-2 surgeries {not minor ones either} each and every year plus other life threatening situations) that she nearly dies for most of the recent ones except knee surgeries it seems. For example there is a large chance for dangerous shoulder surgery and its a total replacement rather than just a rotator cuff surgery. During her last shoulder surgery which was less serious than a total replacement the doctors prepared us for her death. It was because it became badly infected. The bad areas that get infected with her is her back and shoulders. She has MRSA. As you probably know MRSA infections can kill. Many do die from it. Her doctor appointment is at the end of next month. Her knee is also bad ALREADY. She already had 3 failed surgeries (they didn't work but luckily that is the "safer" part of her body which typically doesn't become infected) on her knee. The bone is disintegrating. Soon if it continues she wouldn't be able to walk.

Speaking of walking my dad will also need surgery. His back/ hip is extremely painful and can barely walk. Will my parents be with us within the next year or so? Also my brother's student loans are for sure due next month. The ones this month were just government loans which you can postpone. Next month's is a lot more serious because they are private loans and they don't care if you don't have the money or are disabled. At least the government loans understand better. I can't be thankful for health or finances. The main thing I am thankful for right now is that dream game. But I fear they will run out of money because of how ambitious this game is and cancel it. I gave my own money into this game because of crowdfunding. If its canceled I better get my money back. I don't trust anyone. OK this post is too long. Sorry.

I spoke to Mum and she says I should start it. She's coming up to get me from Uni tomorrow and so I'll go home for however long I need to until I'm not a zombie. I'm not happy about it - I feel like I *should* be able to last out another 6wks until the Xmas hols, but 6wks is a long time

I'm sure it's not as bad as you feel it is. I've (finally!) finished a card I was making for my nephew who's due to be born next week. It's a book that folds open with 3D letters that spell his name, one letter on each page. Personally I don't think it's very good, but my housemate says it is. Other people tend to like my cards more than I do. Maybe we're too close to it to appreciate our efforts. I know all I see is areas that I could improve next time. So definitely don't chicken out costello. I'm sure it looks brilliant

cybermember That sounds rough with all those weather fronts going on at once. I hope it passes by without causing too much mayhem. Yeah pdoc has prescribed it at night and I'm going home so family can look after me and my dog while I'm all zombie-fied. Have you taken it before? If so, how long were you knocked out with it?

firebird It sounds like you have a lot on your plate at the moment. I hope your Mum gets through her surgeries ok. At least you have this game to look forward to. Fingers crossed that goes ok.



*Willow*

What kind of models do you like to do, FireBird?

I hope you don't lose your electicity, cyber.

Good luck with the new med regimen, Willow.

Hugs to all.

[QUOTE=WeepingWillow

cybermember That sounds rough with all those weather fronts going on at once. I hope it passes by without causing too much mayhem. Yeah pdoc has prescribed it at night and I'm going home so family can look after me and my dog while I'm all zombie-fied. Have you taken it before? If so, how long were you knocked out with it? [/QUOTE]

I've taken Seroquel in the past for insomnia and it knocked me out real good. But I have read from other people who do take it and pretty much everyone says it's quite sedating. The hospital took me off Seroquel because the they didn't want me on two antipsychotics.