Roll Call Four

Oh Costello, I am so sorry to hear about this. I have been praying for this woman. It seems that the only recourse for correcting the injustices in the world today, are to execute justice in our own lives when it is in the power of our hand to do so. You are a good person. You make a difference in the lives of your sons and your coworkers, everyone whom you place your presence upon.

That is healing to the world around you, because you choose to do the right thing. I am proud of you and I am sorry for all the grief that this situation has caused you. I will continue praying for this woman whom God knows who she is. He will be with her day and night I assure you. She will receive the crown of life and every tear will be wiped away beloved. Yours truly, Lightbulb7

Thank you, lightbulb. It tears my heart when I think of this woman who can't find a place for herself in the world. Everywhere she lights, she's asked to move along. Where do people want her to go? They don't care. They just don't want her here. Let her be somewhere else.

My son's job didn't call all week. And neither did his friend Kevin. Last night he wanted to go out, so he called Kevin and asked if he could come over. He went to Kevin's apartment, and as soon as he arrived Kevin told him they were doing drugs there. My son said he needed to talk to him, but Kevin just laughed and said, "You're so predictable."

I guess Kevin isn't going to be a good friend for him. But that leaves him with no one. I'm afraid he'll start taking drugs again - just so he'll have someone to hang out with.

I'm sorry about that lady costello; that's horrible! I'm glad you complained. I'm also sorry that your son is having trouble with his friend. I hope he doesn't get mixed up with drugs, but loneliness can be a powerful motivator so he will need to be strong and keep looking for opportunities to make new friends. It is hard though; making friends is something I've always struggled with.

I'm feeling a bit lonely today. I'm trying to distract myself by studying but it's not really working. I spoke to my mum on the phone yesterday and will speak to her again tomorrow so I shouldn't really be lonely, but I guess I miss having my housemate around. She's not back for another week though.

*Willow*

I hate the freakin' cold and raking leaves. It takes a month of weekends just to pick up two acres of leaves. Wake me up when it's December.

I hear you, cyber. I really need to get out and work on my yard. Come to that, I need to work on the inside of the house too.

There's a leak in the water pipe leading to my house. I'm going to have to hire someone to dig it up - and I'm not sure where the leak is. I went out yesterday and looked at where they'll have to dig. It's so overgrown. I suppose I'll have to mow before they can get in there and do anything.

cyber & costello

I've done absolutely nothing today but stay in bed I'm supposed to be doing uni work or, failing that, finishing the card I'm making for my soon-to-be-born nephew. I just cba though. Even card making, something I used to love, holds no pleasure any more. I'm trying to psych myself up to go in the shower soon as I'm disgusting and back in civilisation tomorrow (Uni).

Depression sucks!

*Willow*

I keep getting in fights with people: at work, at the hostel, in shops.

I saw my call certificate (lawyer paperwork) the other day and I was so ashamed of the grade on it I threw up.

Sigh.

Other than that, how are things going?

Two more weeks of hostels before I can get a lease on a flat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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How are you?

I read back a bit, Elvis. I'm glad your son is doing so well and it is awful what they did to that woman at your library.

Also: wherever there are communal fridges, food will be stolen. Full stop. I doubt it was the MI lady, and even if it was DON'T LEAVE YOUR FOOD IN A BLOODY COMMUNAL FRIDGE IF YOU DON'T WANT TO "SHARE".

I totally agree.

I just spent like 30 minutes working on clearing weeds and limbs from my backyard. It's a jungle back there. I'm going to do about 30 minutes a day until I get enough cleared so that the plumbers can dig up my water line and fix the damned thing. I need to get my yard in shape anyway. It's awful. But I'd really like to deal with that leak before winter.



Went and watched my little niece play volleyball in some kind of special Olympics tournament today. My mom walked it, looked around, and said loudly, "What's going on here? A lot of these people look handicapped!" lol... I guess once you get past a certain age, you can say whatever you're thinking about!

Good to see you again fish

I had a terrible night's sleep last night but I was good and went in to lectures. I have a report to write but it's a group one, which is a nightmare as we can't decide what to write. Luckily it doesn't count for my module mark (it's a practice one), but that means that I'm finding it hard to care about it and just want to write any old thing just to hand it in, which isn't like me at all. Normally I'm very conscientious.

Hugs to everyone who needs one

*Willow*

Well, I brought up the issue of the homeless lady at the staff meeting today. None of the people who agreed with me spoke up. And the other people admitted that she wasn't harming anything or breaking and rules, but they don't care that she was ejected.

One guy said, "The homeless lady will have to spend her free time elsewhere." My God, what arrogance!

Costello, does any of your sons help you with the yard work? Where I live I don't own the house but I do all the mowing and weed whacking and when it's time to gather up the leaves it's the owner (housemate), myself, and hopefully an ex housemate to do it. We've got it down to a science although it's a process. First we leaf blow the leaves into numerous piles then we have this big vacuum that sucks them up into a container and then we dump the container into piles along the curb for the town to pick up. Technically this vacuum is suppose to hook up to the tractor mower and I'm suppose to drive around while it sucks up the leaves but it doesn't work as efficient when you have all kinds of branches and debris mixed in with the leaves. So that's why we don't attach it and vacuum manually and pick out the branches and debris as we go along. Last year it took my housemate and I about 4 weekends but this year we should have a third hand so hopefully it will take less time but will be in enough time for when the township does come by for pick up. This is a very stressful time of the year for me.

Anyway, I hope you are able to clear enough of the area where the plumber needs to dig without killing yourself in the process. We need you around. I'm around the same age as you, so when are the "Golden Years"? I thought things were suppose to get easier as we grow older? Ha!

LOL about your mom at the Special Olympics.

Yes, my son who lives with me has been coming out and helping me.

Because of the yard work? It sounds like you have it down to a science.

When I say my yard is a jungle, that's not hyperbole. When I adopted my younger son in 2004, I was so overwhelmed, I gave up on the yard - especially the backyard. I live in the country, so there's no one to "force" me keep up with it. Anyway the backyard is full of black walnut trees - which have spread under my neglect.

That may be a risk. I already have a bruise on my knee from whacking it on a fallen tree branch. My house is built on the side of a hill, so getting the lawn mower into the backyard is a challenge in itself. I was tempted to leave it out there tonight, but I figured if I did that, it would rain for sure.

At this point I have almost the entire estimated path cleared. There's still one small clump of saplings to cut down. I think I'll keep working at it until the rest of the yard is cleared, though. Might as well. It's time I got it under control.

Yeah, I don't think I ever really believed I'd grow old, you know? Like all those other people must have done something wrong along the way, else they'd still be young. I, on the other hand, was going to do things right and stay young forever. What happened?

Yep. An Estelle Getty moment.

I didn't sleep well last night. I'm quite irritated with my coworkers. I haven't been really fond of our students in a long time. I'm considering calling in sick to work. I haven't taken a 'mental health' day in a long time. Thing is, I do have a reference shift this morning. It's not a big deal to miss that during quiet periods of the year, but right now we're busy and the others will have to pick up the slack. I don't want to do that.

I still miss my ex nurse - I have a message from her, so I saved it to hear her voice - that's how it is.

The new nurse has changed - I cancelled, she called to see if she could see me, since I wanted to know why she thought I was faking, I said yes.

I don't know if my ex nurse said something to her, but now it's "I understand" "I know you were upset" "It's because you can only hold things in so long" "I don't think you're faking - I was talking about choices"

Total Change

We're going for a walk this week - that could be to set me up though.

There are fake paypal emails going around - I just got one today.

Hi, I have a number of diagnoses, and was originally misdiagnosed with schizophrenia many years ago, when it was called manic-depressive, plus also what was then called conversion disorder. However, one of my present diagnoses is BP w psychotic features. So I can relate to a lot of what is said here, in addition to having problems with paranoia, anxiety, and PTSD. The antipsychotics are a trip. I have tried a number of them. Seroquel helped the most, but it messes w my blood sugar. Best wishes to all with that. Also, I've taught students who suffered with schizophrenia!!

I can relate here. But you never know what anyone else is dealing with, at times. And everyone has problems, and times are tough. And you are ok! I do believe we all have the spark of divine within us. However, I can appreciate your challenges here, and often experience similar myself, just get back to it when I can. The best!

Hang in there! I hope you feel better soon! May not be much comfort, but you are not alone!

Kureha! It's good to see you.

Yeah, I've got a few of those too. They say you've initiated some huge amount of money - like $538 or something - to someone you've never heard of. They're hoping you'll panic and click on the link and enter your login info without noticing it doesn't really go to paypal.

This is why I'm kind of glad my mom doesn't have internet anymore. She might fall for something like that. She's not as sharp as she once was.

Welcome, Anne.