[FireBird]

For the last few weeks a lot of weird stuff has been going on as it says in the title. I don't know if this is the right place. For the past few weeks my memory, concentration, and even coordination has been deteriorating majorly. I remember things way after the fact after it happened but a few seconds I forget things so easily like a very old person. I am 29 years young. Today I was given money to put in my wallet (it was money I made) and my dad put it down on the counter this morning. I picked it up moved it around and put it back on the counter for no apparent reason and forgot to even put it in my wallet until I got home just now. I have been leaving my iPod at home and normally its automatic that I take it with when I go places. Then each night it usually is automatic to charge my tablet (i have that along my iPod). In the middle of a sentence I forget what I am saying constantly. Sometimes I wonder if I took a shower or not or if I just did whatever.

I am also hearing weird things. Someone would say something to me and I respond, "did you say...." and supposedly it was nothing even close to that. I constantly hear the wrong words and my hearing is better than average most of the time. I hear things out of the blue as well.

My art if I haven't told you (I probably did) is completely cursed. Every single place (and boy there is a lot!) has either shut down or kicked me out of their store. One of the first places I shut down was a gallery in Olympia Washington. It was doing well before I got in and at first I did as well. Then bam! A sudden slowdown. It ain't just the economy because its still happening with new places as well and the economy is supposedly "better." Of course they totally had to shut down. Then another place a antique store closed a few months after I got in because they had too many things stolen. including my stuff! My stuff had more things stolen than bought. So they had to close down. Then I got to be in not just one but two galleries in Seattle! They were related to autism. At first someone told me how well they are selling that they even sold a $16,000 picture like its nothing. Mine were just a few hundred dollars mind you. Then another slowdown. I didn't sell an original at ALL. Then not one but both the galleries had to shut down. Even though they were one of the best galleries in Seattle with people buying all the time and during the slower times at least they sold a lot of cards and prints.

Lets move to online stores. I shut down 2. One of them was called Social Stripes. They had all the marketing in the world. They worked with autism groups everywhere. After awhile it was so bad they had to shut down. The other is known as Open Hands. Same story. They had to close down.

There is another store I am in Canada. At first they were doing great. This is a bird store but now they are slowing down considerably. It can't be just the economy to blame for EVERYTHING.

Now Mud Bay is the biggest store I was in. They had 18 stores in my area. I had cards in there and then mine were the slowest selling cards they have so they kicked me out.

Now on to the coordination. I can barely put food in my mouth, messing up more when I type, walking into things constantly, putting food on a plate, etc. It has been always bad but its getting progressively worse in the last few weeks.

I also have problems with energy levels and sleep. Either I sleep huge amounts of time or move around all night long. My energy is almost non-existent. I have to take naps during the day. It is very hard to do my normal everyday activities. I can't build my models or draw for more than a few minutes. There are times that around 5pm that I want to go to sleep already. I also can sleep until 1-3pm if I don't have anything scheduled.

During the autism conference I had weird things going on there as well. Even now its happening. I feel like I am in a dream and nothing feels real. I talked weird at the conference like a monotone voice along with some disorganization while talking to people about selling my stuff. At least it was successful at the autism conference. In las Vegas it was interesting because I was in a flash flood.

I have been starting to see things again and I already mentioned about the hearing things. Luckily now its mostly silent in my head.

I have already mentioned some of the stressors that are going on like I am worrying and terrified about our future along with my brother. My brother's app is a massive failure. Just like his website. Both things have not a single user. Even though the website has been advertised even on huge blogs (Technorati) among others. His SSI for the second time has been denied. He has no money AT ALL and can't pay off his student loans and this is the year that it is due and we already delayed it as much as possible so now we HAVE NO CHOICE. My dad is probably needing dangerous back or hip surgery. OK I think this is long enough and I am sorry for putting so much information on here. There is much more but I won't write it now.

I have read every word of your testimony my friend, and the state of affairs in your life has really resonated with my heart and mind. I am very familiar with the things you have stated are occurring in your life and your brother's life. In fact, I believe you are a very intelligent, talented person.

You might realize that as you read the story you have written about your recent experiences, you have already underlined the cause of your recent misfortune absolutely accurately. You wrote, "Completely Cursed". I believe you are absolutely right.

Never fear! The curse does not have to be permanent. You have realized the dark nature of the events that have manifested negative results in your own life, and in your beloved brother's life. What do you believe could possibly be the root cause of this apparent cursing? Your ability to write your story so honestly and naturally, has demonstrated that you have indeed, not lost your mind... yet lol. Perhaps you should re-evaluate your life at this point. It sounds to me that you have a lot to lose if you do nothing and continue on, as the "curse" seems to grow stronger. It seems it is even appearing in your brother's life. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you my friend. Sincerely, Glinda Gail

[FireBird]

How do you stop a curse from happening? It seems you are well educated on this very thing. The gallery stuff actually has been going on for a few years now but other things are more recent, within weeks. The Seattle gallery closed a few weeks ago. The Olympia gallery closed a few years ago.

You also write very beautifully and logically. I have noticed this since you got to this forum. Oh by the way, Welcome to Psych Central!

Oh I don't know what started this curse. Speaking of curses my mom's health is cursed beyond cursed and it will look like my art curse is nothing! She has nearly died many times. She has lots of diseases. Several times after surgery the wound became infected. One time she had a fever of 106.5. I know it caused brain damage. Before this fever she would never get confused. For awhile she was on oxygen her lungs were so bad. Now she also has Sjogren's syndrome. This means everything in your body is dry and susceptible to infections and also lymphoma. No matter how many surgeries she has, they fail. She has had 2 back surgeries and they both failed. She had to have 3 surgeries on the SAME knee because it failed. She had many surgeries on her shoulders. A total of around 28 surgeries increasing every year.

I believe if there is something that caused this curse it is my psychic abilities to destroy many things on Earth and other worlds. Can that cause a curse? That is why I said earlier I don't ACTUALLY know what started this curse. Maybe I am a bad person? My psychic abilities has been going on since around 9/11 on and off. It really got bad starting in 2004. It increased further in 2006. It just gets worse and worse. What kinds of things cause people to get cursed?

Thank you as well for your kind words and warm welcome. Well, it is a matter of our belief system, and the concrete facts that support-or does not support-the truth that has manifested in our individual lives. Sometimes we believe things that are in fact, not true. Just because we believe them, does not make them true.

I am still learning about this due to mistakes that I have made and a familiar lifestyle that I was born into. I believe that the environment in which we "arrived" to when we were born and raised has a lot to do with our initial belief system. Fortunately, the belief system we are born into does not have to become our life-long "curse" so to speak. Once we grow and begin realizing the truth contained in our own realities, we are then able to make our own decisions on what we shall choose to believe or reject as truth for our own selves when we come of age.

This revelation has led me to major progress in the area of mental health. I have known psychosis all too well in my past. Even in my childhood. I do not believe that this is a permanent state of mind, and it never has to be. There are no incurable situations in life. If life exists, it can be changed; even unto the very last breath. Hope is what has never died in my life. It may have been hidden, but never unreal. But I digress.

Back to your situation, I would need to be privy to a little more information about your circumstances and your own belief system. I could not very well prescribe to you a solution that has been miraculous in my own life, according to my own belief system. Your beliefs could be much different than mine.

I believe that the things we battle in the physical world are not originally physical. I believe the manifestations in our lives are from a spiritual "root world" in a sense. These beliefs are very real to me, and I am completely convinced in my own heart and mind.

If I were to suggest to you that you do the same things I did to turn my "curses" around, and receive blessings, I would have to assume you have similar beliefs as I do. We all know that assuming makes an ***** out of you and me lol. So that said, if you would still like more information, I am certainly eager to share the secrets to my success, and either way I truly hope you find healing and happiness as I have. <3 Your friend, Glinda Gail

[FireBird]

Thank you for responding.

Which belief system? Are you talking religious beliefs? Or things that other
people might not believe such as the psychic abilities... or both?

I have never physically committed a crime with my own hands, hurt anyone intentionally, I tell the truth about 99.99% of the time (the main lies I tell are things that no one would tell the truth to such as when someone else says... "Do you think I look ugly in these clothes?" kind of questions. I mainly respond, "That looks interesting."), I don't do anything illegal like drugs, or anything else to deserve this curse of my life.

Like i said, the only thing that has come to mind is my psychic powers also referred to as the Power of Influence. I am NOT claiming I am God who I believe in very much. I pray to Him. But I am not Christian. I am Jewish. Actually my family is Jewish, I almost have my own personal religion. It has a combination of several other religions. But back to the Power of Influence. My first psychic hit was 9/11. I get psychic dreams. Now, I never know which of these dreams are going to come true. I have others with news events that never come true. I knew that the stock market this year was going to hit 13,500 and it did recently or at least 13,000 minimum. My new number I see is 14,000 for the Dow. I also see the stock that my family invests in going DOWN to the teens. I predicted that the stock market was going to shoot up at the beginning of the year while our stock crumbles down. In 2004, I had repetitive dreams about the tsunami in Indonesia and roughly how many were killed. I have described plane crashes and their locations. Once I told my parents that I saw this pipeline disaster in Africa that killed 200 something people (this was a few years ago) and a few weeks later exactly what happened. When they showed the images on TV and the Internet, it was the same EXACT as my dream. But after these small events they grew bigger.

I have voices and thought insertion in my head. One is a government agent that tells me horrible things. They have told me about technology that the government was working on. It was well before it hit the Internet. Once they told me about robotic insects. Now recently it is hitting the news.

Another thing they tell me is NOT on the news and things the government to the public is NEVER going to do. Tell me about the existence of alien beings around this galaxy and around the Universe. While I do believe in God, it doesn't mean that there are no aliens. But the Government is never going to admit alien life anywhere in the Universe even though they work with them. Aliens come in all shapes and sizes. The two that I know about are simply known as the Blue aliens and the other is Green aliens. The Blue aliens used to be very friendly, peaceful as a matter of fact. It was until their homeworld was destroyed by me (well, actually my psychic powers). There was a solar flare. When I was having problems last year the government voice told me to injure myself to deflect the solar flare away from the planet. There was another that was destroyed by a comet, and this year was an entire solar system by toxic cloud. These other ones don't include the green aliens as they are from another galaxy. When these planets are in danger which now seems yearly, it always involves hurting myself. This year i tried but it was for other reasons as well (trying to quiet the voices... so I took an overdose and went to the hospital). I won't get more into the aliens because I don't know if you believe this anyways.

I call the psychic powers both the ones on Earth and the planets a curse. I hate having them because I believe I could have prevented these things from happening. I never called anyone. Since I have news kind of dreams that DON'T come true as well I can't really act on them. Sometimes I can also sense things seconds before it happens. It is NOT all the time though. Sometimes I have months between psychic dreams. Sometimes the dreams are wrong. Sometimes they are right on. Lately though, its been more weird type dreams. Things that there is no connection to each other. Although I also lucid dream and a lot of my dreams are vivid as well.

Can something like these horrible things cause a curse? I can't control these powers and it is NEVER intentional so its not like actually trying to commit a crime. The ones that took place on Earth took place in dreams and the others it was the government voice that told me. Sometimes I can physically hear the government voice (he's male...I'm female) and other times its more like loud thoughts.

I probably shouldn't go into religious details here since this forum is not for that.

Firebird, you can rest assured that nothing you could ever say to me would be misconstrued. I have also been subject to the exact same stigma that you have suffered throughout your lifetime. Frankly, I see nothing at all "wrong" with your belief system. I have had a very similar life as you.

I believe I know exactly why this is happening to you. Perchance, have you had the opportunity to skim through my recent piece entitled "America's Next Top Prophet" ? The area in your and your beloved brother's life that has been "cursed", is NEVER about your failures to save the situations you were told about. It is in one area of your lives; the division of your life involving your primary occupation choices.

You are Jewish. It is likely that you are familiar with the Old Testament as I am. The Prophets of the Most High God were not able to stop the disasters and judgments that had been determined beforehand by Almighty God; NOR WAS IT EVER THEIR JOB TO PREVENT THOSE THINGS. If it were their job to prevent those things, they would not be called "Prophets", they would be called "Lifeguards" (the flood) or "Military Commanders" (the captivity of Israel both times)

3 weeks before my brother died, the Lord God told me that he was going to die. You should read my blog in your free time. The link is on my psych central about me page. I have a piece called "A Season of Grief, Letter to the Church Part 1" which is an absolute true story. Everything I write is true. I suggest you do the same. Write these things down beforehand as PROOF that you do indeed have these powers. Even if you just need more confidence in your abilities, it will help you to realize your greatest potential if instead of only memories of the results, to have a hard-copy for your records.

The department that you and your brother are encountering slammed-shut doors is in the arena of "primary life-occupation". I believe you have a destiny that is far greater than you can provide with your central attention on the artwork. Your brother's apps might not succeed either if he doesn't realize that there is a higher calling on his life and yours.

These gifts have not been given in vain, and because of my gifts I also know that you have always known this in your heart. Your art is not the only thing you are sent to this planet for, and your brother, with the app business, either. You have been endowed with power from on high. Sharpen your skills. Ask Him to teach you what you must do. Come humbly before Him and He will not turn you away. Until we submit fully to Him, every thought, movement, word, and action, we cannot fulfill our destinies as we were created to.

You are a very very important piece to this jigsaw puzzle that is our day and age. I am not a liar. I have been wrong myself. We are learning about our powers and He is the only one who sees and knows the ENTIRE picture. He is the Creator of the Matrix, for Pete's sake! Of course He is the only one who holds the keys to life, including you and your brother's. We only have one single piece to this manifold enigma that is life.

Go to Him, and He is able to cause you to triumph in everything you set your hand to do. This is not religion. It is simply truth. God speed my friend. Again, check out my pieces and you can add to yours. You are an artist, but you have many other things given to you that are meant to affect humanity as a whole. To have the greatest impact, don't quit creating artwork. Simply add to your offerings to this world. I believe in you, and He most certainly does too; and even greater than we can understand while human. Your friend, Glinda Gail