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Old May 19, 2006, 12:11 PM
ovidblue ovidblue is offline
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No, Im not suicidal, dont worry, I know we arent allowed to post things like that. But I cant stop crying, and I just really feel this awful pain inside, Ive had enough, of my life, the disapointments in it, everything Ive been through, this bloody illness, not knowing whats real and what isnt anymore. Its too much. I dont know what to believe and what to disbelieve. I cant get myself together at all, its taken me hours just to have abath today and Im still not dressed. Ive now got to go get ready and put a smile on as I am with my children this weekend. But, the thing is, I am always the person who gives my time and emotions to others, my freinds tell me alltheir problems and I try my best to care for them, but noone wants to know or understand whta i am going through, so Im completely alone. I missed an appointment wit my psychiatrist today as I just cant organize myself recently, not even to do the washing up, so I forgot about it. Im on new drugs, have been for a week or two, I dont know exactly, my sense of time is really messed up. I just cant bear this, I cant bear the lack of compassion in the world, and I dont know if Ive got it in me anymore to keep struggling on. Usually Im strong in faith, but even my faith is faltering now. I feel like my head is about to explode with all my dilemnas, I dont know who to turn to.

I suppose I shall just have to pull myself together for the weekend, and put some more makeup on, and pretend that Im just fine like I usually do. I dont even know why Im bothering to post this, theres no point really is there? No one can help me with this. And anyone who can, wont.

My life is going nowhere fast and noone gives a %#@&#!. not even me anymore.

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Old May 19, 2006, 05:10 PM
omegapool omegapool is offline
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Been schizophrenia for almost 25 years,have just now gotten on meds to help.Only time i gave up is when I was on risperdal.Had very bad side effects on me.I just fight the fight God gave me,hoping by my fighting others wont have to suffer.I embraced the kids to try my best to see that they didn't grow up to suffer.I did well i believe.It helped me a lot to have the kids there,just trying to direct them into positive paths.I wont complain to God on the hand I was dealt,just hope there is a positive reason for it.
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Old Aug 13, 2006, 12:39 PM
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When I feel like that, I know it can be hard but I like to talk to understanding people, no matter how old you are a stufffed animal, write it on paper or do somthing fun! I hope you are doing okay and God bless! Ive had enough Ive had enough Ive had enough
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Old Aug 13, 2006, 01:01 PM
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((((((((((( Ovidblue )))))))))))

I'm so sorry you are going through this pain. I know we are not irl friends, but we do really care. Perhaps you can call your pdoc and have a visit over the phone. Perhaps he or she can change your meds.

We care.

Hugs,

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