[Rainbow_fishB]

i'm 15, i have psychosis, and i'm giving up. I cant do this anymore i really cant. no-one understands. its so hard. I cant do anything, yet i have to do everything. my family dont feel like my family. i want to hurt people, hurt myself. i do hurt myself. my support isnt supportive because they dont care what i have to say. my friends arent interested so i cant talk to them about it. right now i'm alone. i'm terrified. terrified of what i might do. i want to get away from life, but not by sicide, but when i am alone all i can think about is the cupboard full of medicine in the kitchin. I think i need to go to hospital. but i couldnt. my parents would never allow it. i hate this, i hate psychosis, i hate life. i'm so so scared. please help.

Hey Rainbow, I dont know you, but all i can say it does get easier to cope. I have been scizt for a long time and from a lot younger than you were and now I am a lot (waaaayyyyyyy) older than you. Inbetween its been okay and I was able to cope for a long time. At your age its hard enough, thats life I mean, so having psychosis will make everything seem even worse. But i wish I could say something to make you feel better but I know when I was about your age, i was scared. Guess what im trying to say is you have to be strong and brave.

Dont be scared of being afraid or the way you are, thats you. Maybe you can go see your doctor asap and tell him/her how you feel, why dont you ring a helpline and speak to someone. I will pray for you.

[KUREHA]

Sorry you are having a hard time.
Just try to hang on - tomorrows a brand new day

I get times when I want to hurt other people - the psychologist I used to see said she knew I didn't want to do it - it was the illness making me think that.
All I wanted was to be safe.

Maybe you should call your doctor though.