[newtus]

i wana punch everybody around me and stab everybody around me

im getting tired of this people bs.

i keep thinking my food is poisoned or it tases like dead bodies or something. i just lost 4-5 pounds in less than a week. LOOK I CANT EAT. LOOK AT THE DEAD BODY disguised as idk..everything in front me.
thats what i taste.

i sent off a letter with my theories to people that i dont know
but are these news people going to accuse me of tainting letters now?
???????

[newtus]

hm .... ok

[a bland]

Y did u send letters to people u don't know?

[newtus]

to let them know my story/situation of gangstalking.

but THESE ones i just sent are my theories. i sent some to radio show hosts. my theories on like the new world order n stuff.

[newtus]

im thinking of getting a bulletproof wear

i just saw a bulletproof backpack now i dont see it anyone on this site i was on.

[KUREHA]

I got thoughts of stabbing someone, when I was getting mind control and they were putting it into my mind.

[Gr3tta]

I think about doing violence a lot I don't usually like to share that cause I don't want people here to not trust me. But its true.
I think something is wrong with food quite frequently. The whole process of chewing and swallowing and digesting.....uuugghhh.
Hey is this thread called nupdate because n is for newtus and its a newtus update?

[a bland]

I get that. I use to be a very different person because of the military. I was obsessed with killing people and had no sympathy for human life. I've worked very hard to get back to the way I was before the military. But I find myself longing for that powerful feeling of being in control of who lives and who dies. Obviously I can't go around killing people in the civilian world so it's a big adjustment. Glad I'm not the only one who has those feelings.

I used to get the poisoned/tainted food thing too. If I didn't cook it myself, I thought it was poisoned. And then when I did, all of the food was mouldy or I could taste some kind of chemicals.

[faerie_moon_x]

I actually have a lot of violent intrusive thoughts and they scare me. Punching, stabbing, breaking people's arms, poking their eyes out. And they are extremely vivid and graphic thoughts, too. I hate them because it's not me. I'm not violent, never have been. But the scary thoughts come, and I feel guilty for having them. I hate it. But, I notice I have more and more of these thoughts as I get older.