Could this be psychosis?

Thanks, I hope so. When you are not thinking about it does life revert to normal? Like, you don't feel alone when you are with people? I can accept always thinking about it on occasion, I just hope when im not things are good again.

I've just come to accept that life is never really normal -- not even when you have no disorders! But I know what you're trying to say. The biggest obstacle is taking care of the ANXIETY! That is what is making you terrified. There are a lot of things in the world we can't understand or control, but what we can control is how we respond to it... Or at least we can work towards it.

I hope you're right Shay, ive never felt so terrible in my life. I just want to feel I have my family back.

I cant take this much longer, ive had several people tell me this wont ever go away, which has ripped a lot of hope from me, and I still have about 2 months to wait for help I wish I knew if I told them how urgent this was getting maybe they could squeeze mee in somewhere but I don't want to seem pushy.

I can't believe you need to wait so long, get as pushy as you need to get help...I was seen in one day. It will get better.

I'm so afraid. Why are some people telling me it never goes as away? Do you think maybe they just haven't recovered yet?

Not everyone responds to medication unfortunately but you won't know until you try. If it is psychosis the sooner it's treated the less ingrained the belief and the better your chance of recovery. See if you can bump up the appointment.

Even if it got pretty bad, since I know on one level it cant possibly be true, does that keep a chance of recovery hopeful?

Sure...I had terrible psychosis without any idea I had it for about a month and a half and recovered completely over the course of six months with meds and therapy. The sooner you get it treated the better your chances though. I'm still not sure you have psychosis though, you really need a pdoc.

I know. Its so confusing. I don't know much about psychosis, I just know it feels like something isn't 'working' right anymore.

Got some good news, the pdocs place called and said they could move me up from Aug 29th to July 11th. Im glad to be going sooner, but im still pretty nervous about it.

That's great...don't worry they'll help you. Just tell them what you told us.

I definitely have the feeling that I am not real, that maybe I'm dreaming. I think it's because I have lost a lot of my childhood memories during long periods of delusional thinking. The medication worked really well. It is very calming. Because of my social anxiety, I wrote everything down and figured if worst came to worst I would just hand them the note. As it turned out everything was fine. Don't worry the Pdoc will ask helpful questions. It hasn't gone away for me, but it's definitely better.

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