Damn !!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn’t read any old post and I don’t understand how someone could use medication against his/her wishes.
Did you kill someone or do you like to complain while still taking medication?

I'll see what happens tonight, they come about 10:30pm - I was really anxious last night though, I called the nurse just after 12 am to see if I could take some abilify - but I couldn't.
So she said to do something to concentrate on so I played a bit of Mario.

Holy fcuk the cool nurse has some mad skills, she got me to take 10mg, I was like totally against it, but I took it - WTF

Good idea to have things to concentrate on that are relaxing to you. Maybe it will be easier once you get accustomed to having them come. Then hopefully they won't have to come any more for this. Just take it one day at a time.

hahahaha

Newtus, you and Kureha make me laugh . May angels surround you.

Lol, thanks Likewater

I get to go through it all again tonight, it sucks though because I am getting side effects. So going to see if I can just take 5mg or none at all.

what side effects

I'm always tired, slowed down, dry mouth and I feel weird, but it's hard to explain.

i understand kureha. i really really really do.

What medication are you taking? I get all those side effects from Olanzapine. I feel like it's too much effort to even move my arms or hands sometimes it's so tiring.

Give it a chance to work.
It is always hard when taking a new med or increasing the level. Have patience and give it time. I think it will get better.
Im so proud of you for taking the meds and I am glad you have the cool nurse. She is good for you. I can tell.
It may be rough in the beginning but I bet in a few days you just might start feeling better than you have in a while. Glad your staying busy too!

I don’t think that it is a good thing when there is so little agreements with what happens and what you want.
According to me you should make dead certain what you really want after taking all information about what’s possible into account and then stick to that decision.
Is the pressure only psychological or are also real forces working on you, like your family making support conditional on submitting yourself to treatment or the feeling that you need help and that help is conditional on taking medication?
I once sought psychological treatment and, after the first conversation, further therapy was conditional on me ringing back. I never did. I just couldn’t get myself to do that.

I'm taking olanzapine as well,

I don't like it though, want back on the abilify.
I'm hardly doing anything.

what do you mean your hardly doing anything?

Just I can't be bothered to do much - I can't concentrate so I can't make a website and everything takes to much effort and the nurse give me a good analogy - it feels like I'm walking through mud.

Now I can't get my legs to stop moving - its liked I have to keep moving them.

u prob have akathisia. that sounds bad

i saw ur post but i promise u thats a side effect. ur not getting microwave attacked.

You really think so?

I've never heard of that.

its a med side effect called Akathasia. it makes ur limbs feel like they need to move around and keep moving. i promise u. i get it too.

Sucks you get it as well.
I looked it up sounds like it could be that.

Definitely akathisia. You need your dose lowered or you're going to fail on this med.

akathesia sucks. i had it on seroquel. theres a med u can take that makes it go away. artane or cogentin. if ur into taking meds for other meds side effects. i wasnt so i got off it.

The nurse said it would stop, so I should be ok, she didn't think it was microwave attacks either.
The cool nurse won't be here tonight, don't know who is coming.
I cancelled getting blood test done, don't like needles.

Keep the nurse updated on the side effect. That way if it doesn't stop they will have a record of how long it's been happening.