Damn !!!!!!!!!!!!

i agrree. keep them in the know about side effects. keeping them in the know keeps them from re-prescribing it later. and from you being overmedicated on other meds.

Just waiting for the nurse to come and give me my meds.
I do keep telling them about the side effects, the cool nurse said its all in my notes.
I'm sick of this medication.

Tomorrow I'm not taking the olanzapine.
I got some abilify left and I'm going to take that, then they can't give me the medication

Be careful, Kureha. Stopping some meds suddenly can be bad. I don't know much about olanzapine but be careful.

Well I took some abilify and called the crisis team to say they didn't need to come out.
Said they will talk to the Dr about it.

Maybe it will be enough that they will see the side effects were so bad.

Well they are still coming to give me olanzapine tonight

Oh, I see.

Sick of being forced to take it, sick of waiting for the nurse, sick of the gang stalking.
My legs are getting stiff as well.

I'm not forced to take my meds. I choose to take them because the psychotic alternative is unacceptable to me. It's too f***ed up to be on that side of reality.

I get stiff legs as well and I have difficulty with speech and chewing. There is the med Cogentin or the med Artane you can take to ease up your muscle stiffness.

@cyber

do you take cogentin?

i was told that i couldnt chew and swallow because of cogentin.

that could be just me though. but i think the risperdal gave me difficulty too.

I can't take Cogentin because I had a bad reaction to it but I can take Artane but I choose not to take it because it constipates me. But when I was taking it my legs felt so relaxed. It was amazing! I didn't realize how stiff my legs were until I took Artane but sadly I didn't stay on it long enough to find out if it would have helped ease up the muscle stiffness in my jaw to make it easier to speak and eat.

They just said it would go, but the cool nurse will be here Friday I hope anyway.
They took all my abilify - that was a **** load of ****, now I'm going to have nothing for my anxiety.
I didn't want to take, but it's just well it's this or hospital, it sucks.

and you dont want to goto hospital

trust me

I don't want to take it either though.
Nobody cares how you really feel, as long as you act like everyone expects you to act, that is so true.

yes that is true

i dont want meds either kureha but im kinda forced to take them

I know it sucks.

I would rather take abilify - I had less anxiety and no side effects
Olanzapine - anxiety is a bit low, but I have side effects and it's going to make me fat.

I had a compromise with abilify - but they took all my supply.

**** me though, what does it matter if I don't want it

Dr is coming tomorrow, because I refused my medication.

It is true, everyone expects you to act a certain way and if you're different it's a problem. That's a truth I learned very young.

Let us know how it goes with the doctor.

The Dr didn't come, my mam, must have got it wrong. It's just the nurse coming tonight, but this time the cool nurse.

Oh well, that's okay. At least it's the cool nurse. That's good.

The nurse is going to get me extra help, she said I have potential and she doesn't want me to waste my life.

See the Dr in just over a weeks time, but the nurse said he probably won't let me take abilify again.

whats extra help?

You didn't respond to abilify kureha , you may think your treatment resistant but at the very least you should be able to find some med that at the very least improves you somewhat.