[scrappy]

i was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic but they changed it to schizoaffective. i am so lost. i mean my thoughts are constantly going, my mood is ranging from self injury to being very very angry. im on strattera, seroquel, and abilify. they took me off cymbalta but i noticed now i am more anger prone and i feel as if i can just rip things apart. i just dont i guess get schizoaffective. i mean i was diagnosed with the depressed type. but the voices are getting worse and the "shadowman" aka flyod is back full swing, i been hospitalized 4 times and i just cant go back i mean i can but i dunno. im just confused

[Sarah116]

Ah you sound like me I am confused too. Sometimes I just cannot explain myself/wants/needs etc. I have had several and it is still in the process, Psychotic Disorder NOS, Schizo typal, Schizophrenia (Type is unknown) My shrinks do not explain things to me so information I get is often akward or missing. I was in PH once. I dunno what to say. i do hope to get the things I need. I like to follow my dreams even through deavestating times. Some of it is wonderful too. Where you ever real scared of something for a long amount of time?

[scrappy]

yeah i was scared of things for a long time. i am scared to tell people exactly whats going on. fear they will treat me bad to just plain hate. i get alot of fear from the shadowman himself, tells me to follow him and well i did once and ended up cutting myself , i will never follow him again like that just trusting in something that i knew was evil.

[Leilee]

I get upset when I hear how people suffer like you scrappy. I too had problems with different doctors experimenting on my meds and wound up in a whole lot of mess. I remember getting anger prone whenever their was a med that was not working and it sounds like that could be what you may be experiencing? I'm not a professional but a patient that has been hospitalized more than a few times. Try asking your doctor to seriously consider your side effects of anger, because that alone will get you in trouble.

Good luck sweetie!

[scrappy]

thank you, i did go back to my psychiatrist and she put me on three more meds. so now im on abilify, strattera, seroquel, depakote er, atavain(hope thats spelled right), stelazine, and then there are the other meds for my headache which is inderal, and then diabetes meds which are metaformin and glipizide, then the pill for potassium, i hope that this cocktail of meds helps, today i just been a zombie tired and just sleepy. thanks for the reply.

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[BlueFaith]

I was just recently diagnosed as schizoaffective too. I just want to know what it is exactly ... Can't seem to find much info on it.

http://www.minddisorders.com/Py-Z/Sc...-disorder.html

[red_rose]

Here is a website check it out it may help answer some of your qucation.
www.Schizophrenia.com
Hope it helps

[scrappy]

thank you, i looked at the sight been talking to my therapist and i really do think that the meds are now finally working they raised the strattera again and put it also at noon. i feel somewhat like a zombie and a med facility anybody else feel that way?

Yeah. Sometimes it takes a week or so for your body to adjust to medication increases.

Hopefully you won't feel that way in a week or so.

[Beautiful_Pain]

I was dx'd schizoaffective last year. I understand alot of what you are saying, the voices, depression, lurking people, rage, confusion. I'm still in the same mess, alot, so don't think I really have any advice. All I can say, which isn't much, is that you aren't alone in these feelings.

[Sarah116]

I am not Schizoaffective but know how a lot of that stuff feels! Voices in your head or that surround you, some are behind you, they often hiss, whisper or hum sometimes scream. They often tell you where to get special information and secrets. You can not seem to ever sleep or eat or dress right. In public I am a mess! I constantly wring my hands and rock or talk to myself, shake, say my thoughts allowed etc. some of that stuff can be very devestating but remember you are the way you are for a reason!

[beckyb342]

my doctor is looking at me as posssible bipolar you thought you had it bad.and it should be ruled out asi read on this site i think.and john hopkins.i also have depression. im on prozac.right now im paranoid schizophrenic i guess.he hasent said bipolar for sure or not.he just saynig it's possible.would somebody find me another doctor.i wish he was saying shizoaffective. schizo anything would be nice.

[kimthecatlover]

I have been mentally ill since 1973 and it really hit me full-blown in 1985, caused me to lose a good paying job as a kitchen utility worker at a hotel-casino near me...the years between 1985-1998 were lots of hospitalizations because of paranoia/voices/bad dreams that NO ONE BELIEVED I really had..I was in a supervised housing program, different than the housing I'm in now, and the caseworkers there thought I was using my illness as an excuse to be a slacker...I tried to kill myself by OD'ing five times between 1987-1997..each time I sought help rather than death..was on mellaril, trilafon, clozaril, risperdal, geodon, pamelor, prozac, paxil...I was finally DX'ed with schizoaffective in 1998 after many hospitalizations and incorrect diagnoses...I have been able to get most of my life in order with the help of caring people such as my mental-health staff and fellow survivors. I'm now thankful for each day I have my wellness, one day at a time..

[beckyb342]

if you don't mind me asking what were you before schizoaffective.im paranoid schizophrenic. how do i know because they are on my thoughts and i heard 3 ufo's they landed and everything.it was my brain disorder.i do seem happy all the time though.i couldn't go through the grieving process when i found oyt i was schizophrenic. iremember being sad and then being happy from then on.till now now i get depressed some then i go back to being happy.i wish i would calm down for good.my doctor is saying possible bipolar, but,i think im schiozoprenic.he should have said schizoaffective then bipolar. but he went straight to bipolar.i read him my notes every chance i get.i did that for another meantal health place i was with for years before group therapy.they were saying paranoid schizophrenic.i did it one time though. for the first time .