[KUREHA]

The Dr came even though I cancelled - she took me off abilify, well I took myself off, but she has now and what a load of sucking **** she put me on olanzapine.
Abilify is ****ing pure as snow and now I'm on side effects medication and I can't go back on abilify

It sucks

[faerie_moon_x]

I'm sorry that happened.

[KUREHA]

You know what else sucks, they are coming to check I'm taking it and if I don't they are considering hospital.

[faerie_moon_x]

I'm sorry you have to go thorugh all of this. I'm not a fan of all this scare tactic treatments.

[newtus]

sorry kureha
yea they scare tactics are no fun

[newtus]

just take the meds for now

[cybermember]

Originally Posted by KUREHA

The Dr came even though I cancelled - she took me off abilify, well I took myself off, but she has now and what a load of sucking **** she put me on olanzapine.
Abilify is ****ing pure as snow and now I'm on side effects medication and I can't go back on abilify

It sucks

What made them switch you from Abilify to olanzapine?

[newtus]

kureha this is what happens when you try to play the system. they make it worse. trust me i know i do it.

[KUREHA]

Cyber - they said the abilify wasn't working.

I don't know what to do tonight when they come

[Atypical_Disaster]

I'm sorry this happened.

[faerie_moon_x]

I agree with Newtus that you should take the medicine for now. Newtus has a lot of experience and knowledge on things, so I trust what she says on this.

[KUREHA]

I'm a TI so none of these meds will work.

At least when I was taking abilify I had no side effects, the Dr said it needs time to work, but they gave the abilify hardly any time anyway.

[newtus]

well were u TAKING the abilify? because sometimes if u go off they will switch u to something else thinking u dont want to take that one.

i can guarantee you A medicine WILL help with SOMETHING. there will be some medicine that will help a long the way.

but you want to be on the lowest dose possible.

and let me tell you truth - theyll put you on high doses of meds if you keep refusing them or misusing them. so take THAT olanzapine for now until you can get back on the abilify.

[KUREHA]

I was taking the abilify properly then I lowered my dose a bit, they know I don't want any meds, but the Dr said I can't stay delusional.

Dr wants me on a high-ish dose because she said it's been going on too long, got to wait at least 6 months before they even think about abilify, because people relapse when they go on it, basically my Dr was saying it sucks, but others have said it's the best.

I think it should be up to my Dr to decide not the crisis team.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by newtus

i can guarantee you A medicine WILL help with SOMETHING. there will be some medicine that will help a long the way.

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I think this is the important thing. This and you want to get them happy with you for doing a good job so they can lower your dose. Or, if the side effects are bad maybe it will convince them to switch you to a different something. Have you been on olanzepine before? Maybe you won't have the side effects. Not everyone has side effects the same way. Abilify gives me horrible, horrible side effects but you have none. So, just because someone else had a bad experience maybe you won't.

I know it's hard. But, obviously the crisis team and doctors are giving you an ultimatum and you have to decide if the risk of not taking it is worth what comes next. Hospital? Injections? All of it forced? Maybe it's better to give in a little now so that later you can say "see, I'm doing a good job so maybe you can work with me on this." I Know it sucks. Maybe it will help your anxiety if nothing else.

Just want to see you better, Kureha, and not living in high anxiety and not having to be threatened by things like hospitals.

[costello]

Sorry you're going through this, Kureha.

My son takes olanzapine, and it's helpful to him with no side effects on his current dose.

Hang in there Kureha! We're all here for you!

[likewater]

I'm sorry. People don't know what it's like to have medical decisions made for you and to basically. Feel powerless over treatment options. It sucks and makes me feel insulted myself, but I do what I'm supposed to but let people know if side effects are horrible or meds not working.

[KUREHA]

Well I took it last night after loads of persuading, I just want back on the abilify.
I'm on 5mg until Friday then going up to 10mg then 15 mg.

It should be up to my Dr to decide, they said they'd keep checking me for diabetes, they won't though.

[KUREHA]

The Dr said I have no insight.
That's because it's true though.

Nurses are coming again between 9-10 to give me my meds. I want to stop though.

[newtus]

you dont have insight kureha your right.

[KUREHA]

I don't know it's what the Dr said.
They keep saying like they know its real to me and its not my fault that I don't believe them, it's just I can't see it.

[KUREHA]

Tried to refuse my meds tonight, it was going ok, but the cool nurse was there and she talked me into taking it, I don't how it happened

[newtus]

we never do kureha

its the trick of the tricksters

[punkybrewster6k]

I think the nurse was doing her job and trying to keep you from hospitalization again. Your nurse cares. Glad you took your meds. Even if you didnt want to. It means you are still here to chat with!