Roll Call 16

I never got introduced to the subject until after I'd started doing it. I thought I was the only one that did it, then I discovered self injury sites online and I was amazed.

Hmm... for me I get the urge to see blood and I do it to myself. There's a voice in my head that tells me to do it.

i used to visit self injury sites to learn how to cut symbols into my arm. very triggering. i used to print out the pictures and take them with me to school because i was so triggered by them and i always wanted to do it.

btw if anyone has instagram people post pics of their cuts on there too. im guilty of that too but im just saying

people also post schiz pics on there too. theres a whole community on there.

My daughter has never admitted to me that she got the idea from her hospital stay but I'm sure being in that hospital didn't help any. But I didn't know what else to do. She was literally crying non stop and could not function and didn't know why she was falling apart. It broke my heart to see her that way and me not being able to fix it. Really bad times back then.

I tried it and I couldn't.

How is she doing now? I hope things are going better.

That was the worst drug I have ever taken. I changed overnight and started doing things that were very out of character. Paxil made my mood swing. I ended up getting diagnosed with BP II, which resolved after I discontinued the drug.

I don't take antidepressants for anxiety and depression, because I am scared they are going to make me impulsive and suicidal. They never really worked for those problems. The do work for obsessive thoughts and behaviors, though. I take Cipralex 5 mg for that reason and without those nasty side effects.

I wonder that too. When I was in the adolescent psychiatric unit, the girls would instruct others on how to SI. It was a contagion. At one point everybody on the unit was doing it.

I'm not a proponent for hospitalization especially for teenagers with adjustment problems, because they usually leave with more problems. A lot of these problems can be dealt with much more effectively in the community.

She is doing much better now. Abilify made her do things she never did before and have very scary visuals. Once I took her off that medication that all went away. I had to be the one to taper her off because the stupid pdoc at the time wanted to keep her on it despite all the extra symptoms she starting having from taking this medication. I had to get right up in this pdoc's face and demand that he write a prescription for a lower dosage of the stuff so that I could do the taper. That was a very scary time for my daughter and for me as her mother. Now she takes a very low dosage of 20mg of Citalopram. That has worked for her. She had a lot of therapy during that time too and was blessed to have a really great therapist who taught her coping skills and really helped her pull up out of the deep depression that she had been in.

Yes, I have one. I used it last winter and liked it. I should start using it again.

My daughter changed drastically the moment she began taking the Abilify. It was just terrible. I was so scared to leave her alone for fear that she would commit suicide. Seeing my daughter go through all this had made me fear pdocs and medications. I took some years ago before my daughter's experience and it made things worse for me. I've been medication free for many years now.

After what we went through with the hospital I now know that was not a good place for my daughter.

Change your diet?

Ask for the message to be deleted. Click on 'report post' and put a message in that the photo is showing up on tapatalk, and you're embarrassed by it. That will send a report to the moderators of this forum. They'll remove the post. That should take care of it.

Costello so great to see you! Since you are a Moderator can you delete a picture post for me? It keeps showing up when anyone uses Tapatalk. I think it's caught in some sort of a glitch. I tried to delete it myself but it happened on page 2 of this Roll Call. It has been way more than 4 hours since I made the post and I read that only a Moderator could erase it. It is the picture I shared showing my weight on the scale. Are you able to delete that for me? I would really appreciate it. I don't understand why that picture of all pictures got caught up in a glitch like that. Funny but embarrassing.

ive been to the hospital 15-20 times. its crazy. ive been strapped to a bed and locked in quiet rooms. given the butt injection. everything under the sun. sometimes the hospital gave me a purpose. get up and goto groups everyday. that gave me a purpose. but i didnt like groups they were boring but still. and getting to see the pdoc everyday. HE WAS A GOOD ONE. the only good one in dallas. ive been to every hospital except 1 in DFW. (acroynm for dallas)

but i hate the hospital. but i met some cool people there.

Moderators only have 'powers' in the forums where their names are listed in the lower right hand corner. And that would never be their 'home' forum - which for me is this one. So I can't do anything about it myself.

I hate hospitals too. The last one I went to wasn't so bad though, thankfully.

may i ask where she went? its ok if u dont want to say too. i completely understand.

My experience scared the **** out of my mother. She clung to me one night and cried.

I can only imagine what it was like for her and you. I will never know, because I am not a parent.

Oh okay. Thank you for telling me how to fix it. I'll do that right now.

I cannot explain it in words how much it hurt but I can say that I hope and pray that we never have to go through that ever again. My daughter and I are very close so I pray that she would come to me and tell me if things were getting bad for her again.

She went to Timberlawn in Dallas.

For Bean, we had little choice. She has been in 3 times with chronic psychosis. She does not remember much but did ask me why girls in there would cut themselves. But she is young. I worry about when she is a teenager and may need to go back in....teens trade ideas at times...

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thats an awful place i heard. im so sorry.

you know greenoaks? ive been there a few times. its where they take all the drug addicts and homeless