Roll Call 18

I've wondered where you were, Kureha. I thought maybe you were in hospital, since you had been worried about being sectioned. I'm just glad you checked in and are ok.

omg yes!!!

like a pill a day keeps the doctor away?

That's what I'm sayin'...

Absolutely!! I feel like you're at a fork in the road Newtus, where you can either remain in control of your life by working with your new pdoc, or you can stop the meds and watch it all go to hell. I know we don't want to see it all fall apart for you, but only you can decide which path to take.

I'm ok. Just about surviving half term holidays. I'm really nervous about my GP appt on Friday. It's for my annual MH review. I don't know how much I can trust him or how much to say about how I'm doing. I want to talk to someone IRL about everything, but it don't know if he's in on it with the CMHT :/

Also my period is late and part of me thinks that they've figured out a way to mess with my fertility because the Govt doesn't want more crazy people... I'm trying to tell myself that's it's just stress and that stressing about it being late is just going to make it later...aargh! (And no, there is absolutely NO WAY I could be pregnant, because if an angel of the Lord came to me, I'd tell him to F off!! Lol)

*Willow*

that nurse is haunting me! so is the therapist and what she said about sendin my medical records over to this new doc. haunting my daytime naps.

I.feel.like.poop.

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Yes, Newtus. I agree with everyone else. Better than injections and hospital and all that nightmare.

why?????

What's going on?

lets all walk around our house naked today! or our workplace! whoo!!!

Errrr.... both places have way too many people for me to do this!

Considering the amount of security at my work I could never get away with it...it would be a one way ticket to a psych eval or a jail cell...

lol prob a psych eval. considering where your at. what about home?

i hope CrackingSlowly is ok. havent heard from her.

I could do that---its just a matter of remembering and shutting the blinds and stuff....but yeah I haven't done it in a while might be fun!

hey all....

T comes back tomorrow. he said he missed me and is looking forward to seeing me. i got drug tested last week. they suspended me to stay on the main campus for 5 days. i will talk about it with T on friday. im stopping smoking weed for a while. i think its for the best

oh! so youve done it before haha

thats prob good idea. did they suspend you becuase of the weed?

yea. i got in trouble. im nervous to talk to T abt it tomorrow. but he seems supportive. he said he doesnt hate me and cares about me very much

thats good. im sorry you got in trouble for the weed. i wish you hadnt. but i guess its best to lay off it for awhile or however long you have to/need to. just remember he said he cares for you and i think youll be ok.

Yup there's sort of a thrill to it...but I live alone so its not like anyone is going to walk in on me or anything

i think it was a sign that i should stop. yes im glad he cares for me. i think ill be ok too. thanks...

See, this is why I don't do it... I have no only my kids but also my MIL. Errr... no thanks. If it was just me and my husband in the house it would be different. Maybe when I'm an old lady. LOL

did you wanna stop junkdna?