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my mom does that. she has told people i have schizophrenia. and even made me friend someones kid who had schizophrenia too. it was hectic.

Every time my mom hears about someone cutting she always wants me to "talk to them" like I can talk someone out of cutting. Phft...

They left to go out to dinner. I didn't want to go. I need to get out of here but there's nowhere to go.

My mom was so in denial too she was always like did your doctor use the "S" word and I was all like no but I use it all the time and he never corrects me. Of course I don't have an official sz dx but they still can't rule it out its kind of lets take you off the meds and see if you relapse or not---

I hate that feeling of being monitored Faerie I feel it all the time lately and it really makes me anxious. I'm sorry that you're feeling it too. I guess I'd just try to tell myself it's a coincidence and hope that I could believe that enough to lessen the anxiety a little, but it's hard

I'm so sorry that you have unwanted house guests Blackwhitered I would totally hate that too. I find it stressful enough when I have people I know and like coming to visit for a few days, never mind strangers staying for who knows how long! :/ Also my Mum tells people about my MI without checking with me first, which really Ps me off. When I was in the hospital, I had to go to my brother's engagement party and see extended family, so I told my parents that I didn't want them to say that I was in hospital. So I go to the party and pretend to be fine cos I think no one knows, and telling people I'm fine if they ask, and the whole time my family knows that I was lying and currently sectioned. It's soooo embarrassing!

*Willow*

Let's see the windchill is minus five degrees and I'm still cold under my blankie no walking around naked tonight....

Its still freaking below zero here too! Making me crazy! (er) And more snow! It will never end!

Yeah it's supposed to even colder tomorrow....I have no words anymore this winter ...sigh

Not too bad here in Columbus Ohio. It's cold but not below zero. According to the forecast we get rain on Saturday and snow on Sunday. Which probably doesn't matter on my end because I'm going over to my dads house. He lives south east Ohio.

speaking of being naked...we could all sleep naked today. its quite liberating and something we could all do cuz we have covers covering us.

Lol... I just took a bath and I'm currently laying in my bed butt naked. I do have covers covering me up.

Still too cold 2 blankets plus flannel PJs tonight for sure.

For the first time in my relationship I saw my boyfriend cry. The fact that I tried to off myself several months ago and now one of his family members is having issues made him snap. I feel so bad because he said he wished everyone was normal and that they would be okay. He said he is scared of everyone trying to off themselves and doesn't understand it since he doesn't have any severe mental illnesses. I didn't tell him this because of that moment, but I'm starting to feel not okay. I hope spring comes soon and that everything will be okay.

ive been getting up at 6am everyday idk why.

Newtus....You are in TEXAS!
Up here, I am sleeping with sweat shirt turtleneck and sweat pants with my bathrobe and can see my breath. Thats how cold my room is right now.lol
or else, yes...we could all sleep nakie.

....SOOOOOO sorry you have to deal with the stress of strangers in your house. Especially if you are feeling this bad right now.

How many hours are you sleeping?

Ayup. Too cold here too. And windy! I cant take it. Yes......Its making me crazy too. Literally. I understand.

Fine then. DON'T hug me. lol

I just feel icky. Been in the house for weeks with cold and snow and wind and no relief.
It plays with my head. Makes me not good in the head. I cant even hold a real conversation with a real person anymore.
Bills, bills, bills and no money to pay them.

Bean is becoming delusional and not coming out of it. Pdoc is very supportive but says this is the progression. Progression??? What do you mean 'progression'?
Well make it stop!

I'm with you, Punky. I'm sorry you're so stressed out. Sometimes I wish life would just give us a break.

I don't know what he means by progression as in telling you it's a progressive illness (which I think it may be but I think that type of progression takes a long time.) Or if he's saying he's progressing in figuring out what is going on with her.... which is possible and more positive, I think.

Crying so much, I think I'm going manic

Oh no.

Im sorry medical fox.
Its a hard thing to overcome when the crying gets that way.

yes. i feel good knowing i can stop if i want. like that im not psychologically addicted. that i can get by without smoking weed. it feels good to know that. and i keep my apartment cleaner. lol

I bet you'll feel better all around. Plus you can be proud of yourself to overcome something that was negative for you.