Roll Call 19

I'm gonna watch it give me a sec. I'm smoking outside.

I dont broadcast it but I was dx a few years ago BP and hospitalized 3 times for it and PTSD.
No meds for years tho because it interferes with my art.

I get talking too much in public and spend a week embarassed about how i acted and what i said.

Im manic a lot and get a lot of artwork done then I crash and hide from the world.

I have had delusions and some really extreme paranoia. But for the most part i have learned to controle it as much as possible.

Maybe twice a year it gets hard to control but i stop and realize what is going on and try to keep that in mind.

Most people just call me "high strung".
I hide when im depressed.

So now, you all know. Omg i cant believe i just let all that out.

IRL im just a crazy artist. Sheesh.
Even my kids think this!

Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2

Punky that is very brave of you to share all that with us

Its 11:30 at night.
My confession time methinks.

Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2

you smoke too?

thats a brave confession punky. im glad you said that i really am.

Yeah u see when I was on PC before there were some ppl from that organization on the forum. I was in a really bad mixed state and was trying to get support bc the memories of what I went through wouldn't stop. Well I blocked the ppl in it. But then one of those evil ****ers posted on my profile. I didn't get much support bc she was in a big click in the bp forum. I got extremely paranoid and ended up in the hospital. I deleted my account on here. I've blocked this specific person, I hope she leaves me alone. Now not EVERYONE in this organization is a predator but the ones that aren't know about the predators and make excuses for them and blame the victim. Imo I think the whole thing is just evil. And I don't trust not one person in it even if they aren't a predator bc I know they know how bad it is and bc they don't want it exposed.

Simce i was 12. Now ecigs for about 6 months now. Cheaper than cigs. Cigs are 10.00 up here. Ecigs are a.lot cheaper.

Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2

Oh wow that's terrible sunshine! Hopefully that person won't be able to find you on PC anymore.

Wow that's pretty expensive!

oh you smoke too?
i meant sunshine but you smoke too?

I love it! I love eccentric artists. Don't be ashamed please. U seem like such an ahead of ur time person. I wish I was capable of great art. I mainly just enjoy what artists do. U should be proud punky.

Sunshine,
Im sorry you had to go.through.that and for so long!
That stuff.stays with you.
Cant wait for it to be exposed.

Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2

Yeah I smoke need to quit but wanna lose weight first.

I hope not. I've blocked her but she may have figured it out bc I posted a little on the bp forum before I blocked her. She never posts but lurks. Her whole flipping life is pc.

i smoke too

i posted two of my videos so far.

I'm going to watch them in a little while Newtus. I'm going to go for a drive. I haven't been out of this apartment all day!

When you closed your first account and opened up your new one did you do so with a different name?

Newtus,
Omgosh. Thank you for the video. It brought tears to my eyes to hear and see you talking to us!
Thank you.
I love you my friend.

Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2

at this time of night?! okkk! its your call.

lol you watched it?
im glad you liked it.
i feel embarrassed.

(SIGH) SNIFF SNIFF.
Enough emotion for the night.
I gotta.go to bed.
Peace and love.everyone

Sent from my SCH-S720C using Tapatalk 2

night punky!