Roll Call 25

Hang on, lillybird. Wednesday will come soon, and I hope your pdoc can help you.

Thanks.me too.

Newtus, have u tried to do an online dating service like okcupid?

yea i got very few people and the ones that did message me were very weird

Did u put u have sz in it?

lol yes....

I don't think u should. Let them get to know you first. There's more to you than sz.

I kind of agree with sunshine. I have yet to tell the guy I went on a date with about my mental health issues. Then again with him nothing is serious.

I agree. A.lot of people have misconceptions about sz. If they got to now you first and liked you... then maybe it wouldn't be hard to remedy any misconceptions they have

this guy at work told me i was lying about being 27. he thought i was 19. he kept telling me i was lying. i said "why would i lie about being almost 30".

I've been told I have a baby face and it's hard for people to believe I'm 24. I usually just take it as a compliment.

i guess i take it as a compliment too. but sometimes i wonder if ppl say that because of how i act. like im immature or something.

I feel all shakey. I really like this guy. We talked all night. He's a workaholic though. He said he's gonna cut down so he has more time to spend with me. I'm nervous, it takes a lot for me to really dig someone and it was completely unexpected, I didn't plan on dating until blah, blah blah. You know until I felt everything in my life was as perfect as I could get it. I've partially told him about having bp. I told him I have depression issues and take meds for it and for sleep He was like no big deal.

I drank way too much coffee today.

I sometimes think the same thing. If someone told me that over the internet I would take some offense unless they seen my picture.

Go for it.

I'm talking to him. We talk constantly. I'm so scared of falling in love...It's been a longggg time.

Why does he have to be so damn charming, sexy and compassionate. He gets me...

Thought about telling him how you feel?

Oh yeah I have. He feels the same way. We're tripping on it. It was completely unexpected for both of us. We haven't had sex yet but we talked a lot about it. What we like etc. We're even compatable in that sense. He appreciates the activist part of me. That's so hard to find in this world today.

Heh. Why fighting it?

Idk, scared. If it doesn't work out I may break down. I'm gonna just go with the flow though, thanks erti.

I'm not usually awake past midnight. I wonder if it's because I forgot to take my Abilify.

It's a possibility, is it too late to take it now?

I did a personality test a bunch of times and it shows INTP and mostly INFP. I'm not surprised but shocked that it was pretty accurate for an online test (Which isn't very accurate). Both mostly correlate with Schizotypal PD out of the 16 possible personalities in general terms.

So ya I'm an amnivert. Huzzah

Why are there people in my house.. their presence is assaulting my mind..