Roll Call 36

My parents are both tall....but I guarantee we aren't bulletproof....in fact we are easier to hit being bigger it's just that people don't routinely physically mess with you when you're big....

almost got into a fight with a lady in a parking lot today. she kept honking at me at every stop sign i would stop at. and i came THIS CLOSE to getting out of my car and either getting on top of my car and tellin her to go around me then or going up to her window and bashing it

my mom just left. i had fun with her. she helped me clean all my dishes. she said my apartment looks a lot more homey than before. she hasnt been here since december. she met toby for the first time and he was friendly and let her pet him n stuff. she said he was cute. we went out to eat, then she got me some groceries. we tried to put up this shade in my bedroom window but it was too hard and we didnt have the right equipment. ive wanted a shade in there for a long time. there is no curtain or anything. it freaks me out at night cuz i think someone might be standing looking in on me.

anyways, i had a good day.

You should get a temporary shade they are cheap but work well and are easy to install...basically an accordion of paper with a sticky top and a couple of clips to set the height, they sell them at places like Home Depot....

I'm glad you didn't let it get the better of you....

me neither. but now i feel really aggressive right now. i wanna play with my dads pellet guns. im sick of my airsoft guns. but i dont know which of his 4 guns are either pellet or real. 2 are real and 2 are pellet. i dont which is which because they all look real. should i just pick one up and try it?

wait a minute. now theres six here. whered the other two come from?! now i think 4 are real and 2 are pellet. but i dont know which is which or i dont know???

I wouldn't mess with them.....

maybe ill just shoot my airsoft rifle. i want a new one. an ak-47 airsoft thats fully automatic. but i really wanted to use the pellet guns. one day soon ima use the real ones.

sorry guys. i just like the power of shooting a gun. its so powerful feeling. deep inside of u

Newtus,
You should forget about the guns and think about how you can live independently in the long run. It may even involve revisiting meds you may have taken in the past , but approaching them with an attitude that you will be compliant. Something I've being meaning to say to you for a long time and that is there are better meds out there than Haldol. It may seem complicated and you may ask yourself 'how will I ever live independently' . Well it starts at the bottom first up , you will have to take your symptoms one by one and ask yourself which is the most troubling symptom and take a med that gets this symptom under control. What you must understand is that when taking meds there are trade offs. You may think for example that weight is your number one problem and choose abilify , but if ability gives you unbearable restlessness there's no point taken it as it will only cause more sadness and ultimately you will not be compliant at a therapeutic dose. Take me for example I've settled on seroquel because number one I can take it all the way up to the therapeutic dose without much side effects and its relatively weight neutral for me. The disadvantages are its AP properties are average. But it works for me in that I can live independently but I have some residual symptoms I have to deal with. So my advice, revisit your meds and keep going until you find one that works for you. It seems that your strategy is that you will suddenly be cured someday , it's a slim prospect newtus , anyone that knows recovery , will tell you it's a long and arduous property , of tiny increments , that may even last a life time. From reading your posts you will also have to decide of the lesser of 2 evils you are running your own health down gradually irrespective of meds , that's what it looks like to me. And meds take time , tolerance takes time , the first month of an AP can be rough business. Good luck

My Gerard Way CD came, it's ok, but so different from MCR.

Sunshine - hope they can sort out your meds this time.

I slept only 3 hours last night. Upset about the kitten.

I finally drifted off to sleep a bit before 2, and my son woke me up with a text message asking if I was awake. He never does that. Luckily I fell back to sleep quickly and slept until 5. I really didn't want to get up and run - because I was tired and because I'm still upset over the kitten (is that stupid, to not want to run because of the kitten?) - but I got up and did it anyway. It was hard.

It turns out my son was worried about an ex-friend. He saw a friend last night and learned that his ex-friend is psychotic - hearing voices and delusional - and his mother and father refuse to help because he's refusing medication. My son finds that very upsetting, despite the fact he doesn't even like him.

I guess the ex-friend is Canadian which I didn't know because he went to high school here with my son. Anyway he's in Canada now and unable to get back to the U.S., and he's pretty isolated.

I think it's cool that my son's friend brought this up to him. I guess he mentioned it because my son is now working in the mental health field, and he thought he might have some insights or advice.

its not stupid to be upset over the kitten costello. thats natural. thats very natural. a living thing you loved died and youre upset.

I have another sick chicken. Actually it's the one in my avatar photo. She's lost a lot of weight, and she's not acting like herself at all. She's listless.

She seems to be molting, so maybe that's all it is. I'm not taking any chances, though. We have a vet appointment today at 2:30.

i feel like doing something crazy today cause my voices are telling me to

Does anyone here take both an anti psychotic and an anti depressant? How does/did it work for you?

Stressed out about my job I hate it and can only quit when the mortgage papers are signed then I can go back to school. I'm just annoyed so I'm gonna spend a bunch of money on junk food. I hate my job so much they treat me bad

I noticed an antidepressant effect when 5mg abilify was added to my 80mg prozac. Although im not depressed. I just felt a great mood lift.

I take Abilify and Sertraline. About a week into the Sertraline I felt a nice pick up, like a good caffeine buzz.

...aaaaaaand I'm back.

How is everyone?

Hey welcome back-----glad you're OK----I'm doing pretty well hallucinations have stopped, haven't had weird thoughts in a week or so and only minor sleep issues, how are you doing?

That's great! I'm pretty much the same but the weird thoughts are still there. Hopefully you're on the way out of it all!

I've been in hospital for the past 10 days, things got pretty bad. Ended up in a river thinking I couldn't die, ha... weird stuff. Don't really remember a lot about it, feels like it was a dream. Ever get that?

Feeling much better now, was in a pretty nice hospital but it wasn't my regular hospital so the doctors were pretty terrible to me as I technically wasn't their patient. Either way I was kept safe, so all is good.

Thanks for your support on my older thread. Don't want to go back and reply and dredge that up again, trying to forget about it.

Back from my appointment. I lost some weight. I was at 221 and now I'm down to 209. YAY!

Welcome back.

I'm not too bad. I'm staying by myself at the moment but I've had very little in the way of delusions despite my voices getting a bit worse at times.

I went into town to see if my referral letter had come to my flat but there is still no sign of it.

I'm going to call my GP tomorrow to see if they have heard anything. I know they get told about appointments, but it might only be after the fact. If that's the case, I'll call the hospital as I'm sure they'll be able to tell me whether a letter has been issued.

I'm a bit paranoid that someone might have stolen the post from the apartment building. Unlikely but it has happened once or twice, mail going missing but doesn't help my voices keep telling me they are stealing my post.

I don't & haven't, but I should be soon... currently on Citalopram but I'm waiting to go back on meds.