Roll Call 41

i should delete all the hurtful emails people wrote me on my email huh?

So overwhelmed. I have three exams in three days next week. I am not ready for any of them. My attention has been exceptionally poor lately, and I haven't been able to focus in lectures. Every time I sit down to study, my focus wanders. In the rare occasion that I can learn something, I forget three seconds later.

I also just got my first med school rejection today.

Uggggg y r people sooooo mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my lov

Why are people sending you hurtful emails? That's awful. I would show them to your mom.

its a school email and a school laptop that im on right now and they see EVERY thing which is good but nothing happend yet soooo monday im gonna talk 2 them

That's good. I would save the emails as evidence just in case they haven't seen them.

people hate me because they think im calling them names when im having the worst month of my life with symptoms and they dont care but its all of these girls ganging up on me who were my friends and i cant deal i just got off the phone with my big brother and he said i need to not listen to them and my symptoms also but its really really hard worse that he never went through ;(

Teenagers can be cruel sometimes. It's not you it's them. Sometimes people just don't understand mental illness and they don't know how to deal with it. It's good you can talk to your brother. The more people you can talk to the better.

i actually didnt try it because im lactose intolerant but i might have a sip of it later

You really remind me of myself when I was your age. Just hang on, it gets better. I promise.

Lol... I almost went off on my ex boyfriend about not inviting me to the party at his house. Turns out it's only a small get together for the anime club at his school. They are doing a secret Santa. Thank god I didn't go off. Still feel kinda left out though.

only had one cigarette today. my last one in the pack at 9am this morning. been smoking my ecig all day. feeling physically good.

That's great! The best of luck on quitting smoking!

haha thanks

uggggggg im tired but cant sleep

Really not liking myself now. I went to the salon today and read a magazine while my color was processing. One of the articles I read was about a woman who unfortunately died from cancer, and how she stayed strong until the end. How she never believed she was going to die and never pitied herself.

I always pity myself and often wish I were dead.

Now I'm pitying myself for pitying myself.

How do you add pictures to a post? I want to show you all my new hair.

Usually I host the image at photobucket but you can also add it to your album here then use the mountain icon to put in the URL and it will just show up.

now a days i wish i were dead 2

Here I am!

Omg its sooooo gorgeous!!!!!!!!!!!

Nice color.....did you straighten it too or is that natural?

Stylist straightened it.

I like it