Roll Call 41

Chit chat here...

I just finished watching a documentery on Edie Windsor and Thea Spyer, a famous lesbian couple who were together for 50ish years. And I thought that I don't want to die before I experience that. So all these physical symptoms are really scaring me again.

I need to go back and see that gastroenterologist, but he is going to think I'm crazy. Who the hell wants to have a colonoscopy?! But I just want to know that I don't have colon cancer, and if I do then how much time I've got left.

At the same time, I keep telling myself that no matter what happens in a few months, I'm not dead now. I had a glass of red wine tonight and thoroughly enjoyed it. I spent some time with old friends. I watched the snow fall.

I'm not dead yet!!!

i want some wine!!!

sounds fun secretum. i like your username too

Lol I had a glass of red wine tonight too!

ugh everyones have wine but me. i dont have any

ugh you guys...

my aunt died today or yesterday. my dad just got a call.
if you remember me taking a trip this summer... it was partly to see her. i took lots of pictures with her and stuff. i cant believe this. i just talked on the phone with her last month...told her i was gonna visit her if i could again. just her and spend time with her. she lives all the way in mississippi.

this is too much for me right now.

Sorry to hear that Newtus.

i dont know what to do or think right now. it was my dads sister. i hope he doesnt start drinking because of this. it will only cause more problems...hes already been drinking a lot lately.

I'm really sorry to hear about your aunt. You could ask your dad to talk about his memories a bit. It may help him process his grief.

i guess. i mean my dads hiding his emotions right now. hes not even talkig about it.

i just feel physically sick now.

It's painful for him. I'm so sorry, newtus.

I'm sorry about your aunt, Newtus.

im throwing up and shaking. i feel like im gonna have a panic attack

Try listening to relaxing music newtus.

i think its best if i take all my meds today.

I think that's probably a good idea... sorry about your Aunt.

PS - false advertising, I clicked 'quick' reply & it took 20 seconds to post.

sorry newtus

i saw T today. it was good. i get my schedule tonight. so i will know if i work thanksgiving or not. i work 7a to 4p tomorrow. yesterday T texted me a pic of a grumpy cat stuffed animal with a xmas hat on. im off today so im just gonna sit here in my apartment. to relax.

i took a two hour nap cause the xanax made me fall asleep. i thought that would help but it didnt really.

It's a hard thing to lose someone you care about. Be good to yourself today.

Quiet here today, what's everyone up to? I stayed in bed until 4pm and have just been having the usual lazy day. I needs a job badly!

Hi chickenfoot. Glad you're having a peaceful day.

hi guys! got my schedule and i dont work on thanksgiving!!! and i have easy shifts this week!! (just gotta get through tomorrow!) now i can eat thanksgiving with my family!!! and then come back when my mom goes to work at 3 and eat thanksgiving at the farm!!!

happy