Roll Call 44

Kureha... why not say to meet in a place you feel comfortable with. I'm sure they won't mind?

That's your illness talking... please don't do anything bad.

It sounds like you might need to go back on meds or even the hospital if things are getting this bad.

lol yea im playing pokemon. everyday for 3 days i played it maybe 6 or so hours a day straight. and then some.

She can't she's still in the hospital, so I have to meet her, because she can't get into town herself.
They are going to be everywhere, if I get too stressed, I'm going to call my nurse.

I started out with C. It's a really good language to get a grounding in. It's also good when learning data structures and algorithms as you're focusing more on the problem as opposed to a tricky language like Java or C++.

C doesn't use objects as it's not object oriented so it's a good starting point and so much of the digital world has it's foundations in C.

I went from C to C# which is very similar to Java. I've been told Java would be a wiser choice though, hence me learning it now.

I don't know the first thing about JavaScript Do you find it easy to get your head around? Is it like PHP at all, or am I way off?

The syntax isn't too different from PHP except you declare variables before using them, and they don't start with a $. They have function scope, not block scope (meaning if you use i in a for loop, then try to use i again in the same function, it will break), or global scope. It uses prototypal inheritance instead of classes. String concatenation is done with the + instead of . Yeah, it has some quirks of its own. Here's a better list - https://www.lullabot.com/blog/articl...php-comparison

I'm into web development so that's why I like JavaScript. I've done a bit of Java and C# and a few months with PHP.

Ah sure I'm not too far off then. It sounds good, it's on my to do list for when I've perfected (or become remotely adequate) with Java. Don't want to start too many things at once.

I'm more into applications and games development. The C# was useful for XNA games development and I'm learning Java to hopefully get into Android apps.

This is interesting to me. I have a friend with sz and she thinks she can communicate with all birds. For her it's pretty positive. She said they just tell her about their lives etc.

Sorry you're having a hard time.

Sorry bean, about your friend.

Well I took 10 mgs of zyprexa with all my other meds last night. Feel much better. So far not horrible intense hunger.

Loial- Are you having bad akathisia? Can you take benadryl for it?

I keep smelling faeces everywhere. When I was driving it smelt like it was coming through the air vents and now I can smell it again. I don't know why, it's not me...

Had a panic attack in group today. Talked to my pdoc, she squeezed me in. Increased my anxiety med hydroxyzine to 50mg 3 times a day. She also ordered bloodwork which I'll get tomorrow, to check my valporic acid levels and also my thyroid since I've been having symptoms of hypothyroidism. From there she will probably increase my Depakote for paranoia. I also picked up my letter from her to my college about me having Schizoaffective Disorder to send in to my college's disability office so I can get extended test and assignment time.

I have a lot of school work to do, I really don't feel up to doing it tonight though. Not very motivated and having trouble concentrating, will probably just start fresh tomorrow

I'm embarrassed because this is the 2nd time I've had to leave in the middle of group lately for a panic attack. I haven't had troubles with them for a long time until now

Hope everyone is well

im seeing signs and messages trying to figure out what they mean well i can figure it out some but some are too coded.isee them when driving mostly. i saw t today we played cards.im supposed to call the doctor to get my shot script but im too scared to. idk wtf

i saw 3 cars broken down on the interstate today so bc it was 3 it meant my car was going to break down soon.its got a lot of mileage on it. like over 200k.ive been concerned. now what

i shuld go to bed but im afraid but i m so tired ive been awake for a long time.little sleep

(((junkDNA)))

i hate myself

im gonna tae my meds

Why? You are awesome.....

cuz im dumb and why is this happening i hate it

ill go to bed

Have been considering quitting my meds. My mom said if I quit them and end up back in the hospital because of that she won't help me and I'll be on my own I don't believe I'd end up back in the hospital though. I guess I'll continue them until the semester is over then see about getting off. Does anyone else here have issues with taking meds because you don't believe you need them when you feel good? I'm torn between the two options

I feel like that a lot and every time I went off them I got hospitalized.

Having anxiety about next semester since I might have to take a lot of classes, but I'm going to see an advisor tomorrow to see. They'll all be easy classes, but I never had more than 3 classes before so I'm a bit nervous naturally. Took an extra xanax to help me out. Talked to my therapist about maybe adding Buspar for anxiety and she said it seems like a good idea.

I don't have a 3DS to play the new pokemon games, but I play pokemon Yellow and I play Destiny for the xbox1 as of lately.

Yes, I've done it many times. Well I never stop all of them but mess with them. I'm way too scared to stop all of them, I still struggle even on them. But I think it might be more PTSD related.

But I would say that if you want to come off them, work it out with your doc. Hope u figure something out.