Roll Call 45

lol anyway. you guys make me feel so open. what am i supposed to do?

Lol, that took me by surprise

Roll call can be pretty wild especially at night....

but seriously...i feel really open here...
and i want to celebrate that. i want to throw you guys a surprise party.

I must admit, I've been chuckling for the past couple pages.

im rotflmao

Are you feeling ok? I deleted everything where I quoted you in case you want to clean up more posts.

The way it should be

yea ok maybe i should clean up my posts but to be clear im not intoxicated or anything. i could be on the brink of an episode tho.

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just saying. but im about to take my medication. thank you for caring about me.

Well, I'm really happy that I finally get to talk to you all.

In respects to my relief from anhedonia I have changed my signature to one of my favorites parts in Goethe's Faust.

i feel like there was someone else here who liked geothes faust

Well I would certainly like to meet and greet this person. It's one of my top three favorite books.

I missed it XD

I was writing a complaint to the world in the school and study issues forum cuz idk wtf to do and I'm sick of trying not to think about it.

That's brilliant

i think this person came and went a long time ago tho.

I'm shaking really bad so I'll skip tomorrow's dose of Prozac

I listen to hardstyle and have been for hours without noticing cuz I was on my phone

First track I put right now on youtube it said "GET ILL, NO TIME TO CHILL, COME ON BANGBANGBANGBANG..."

Does anything help to stop the shaking now?

It goes away eventually. I don't want to get into thinking it's a panic attack masked by the Prozac or I'll freak out cuz those panic attacks I literally thought I was going to die.. But I'm sure it's not.

I like what they're doing with the schizophrenia gene research. Says 80% is genetic and may predict 95% testing and 100% testing for disorganized schizophrenia.

But I'm a bit skeptical of putting people on antipsychotics before they develop schizophrenia unless absolutely sure but also it could maybe delay or even stop it completely

Edit: psychosis*

I'm sure I was about to say something interesting in response, and then in the background, the faint sound of minions, singing about a banana. It threw me right off.

Are you in psychosis? Or have schizophrenia?

Messages keep popping up on tapatalk from before I think..

I don't have schizophrenia or psychosis. However, I've never been what those around me would call, "normal," sometimes the things that I think escape my mouth and people look at me if perhaps I belong in a hospital.

Ive done a bit of research, and I think it's possible that I have some type of cognitive dysfunction, which sometimes gets me into trouble at work.