Roll Call 45

i like the avatar of that dog. is that your dog?

You didn't take your meds right? I knew the signs but I thought you knew them too :/

Edit: oh I misread that nvm

Post it in the thread I made for inspiring talks and lectures. I'll have a gander tomorrow, heading to bed.

welp mu friend bailed on me yet again. it makes me mad.

sorry to hear that junk. whatd they bail over?

Yeah, she's my dog. Her name is Cleo.

I'm not taking my meds. I won't do it and that's that. They make me feel like a zombie. I'd rather be more alert than dull.

Snow blizzard ^^

I love those

"My moms gonna die my moms gonna die my moms gonna die" shut up OCD..

i guess she slept all day. at least thats what she said. i am upset. i took a seroquel. i went to the store and just got back and my next door neighbor moved my cig butt bucket. i dont know why but it made me feel even more upset. i dont even know why it seems really trivial but yet i feel like it is a big deal.

also today is my Ts girlfriend's twins 10th bday. i talked to one of the staff at the program i was in and she told me that and she said shes going out to dinner with them tonight. i guess in all honesty i feel sad and kind of jealous of the twins. bc i had just turned 10 when my dad died. i just wish that i had someone like T with me when i was 10. no one was really there for me when i was young.

hpefully the seroquel kicks in and ill just go to bed. i feel overly emotional right now

im really sorry junk. i know a bit feeling like that young. my mom wasnt there for me as a kid. my dad was but he worked all the time. and i was kinda like an only child because my sister had gone off to college when i was 9 so i was left to be home alone since 9.

im sorry about your friend. maybe you can rearrange plans?

...im very lonely

I don't really know to how to jump in. I'm fairly bad at that. I feel like I know you guys, at least slightly, from reading the forums before I was allowed to post. I wish I was better at interaction. I have a friend that has schizophrenia, I haven't heard from him for two days. It always makes me concerned when I can't reach him. I'm sure there's a logical explanation for his silence, but it's usually when his symptoms worsen.

I realize that I'm really dependent on high dose Prozac because when I stop it, I have full blown generalized anxiety and panic disorder.

Just keeping this thought here for later when I want to get off it so I can say I told me so..

i have a bad headache

Just jump and sometimes people will respond and sometimes not....try not to take it personally....

I don't know what to tell you about your friend but to me two days isn't a lot of time, sometimes I would not pick up the phone when playing a video game or some such and people would worry and sometimes I just didn't feel like talking...

you wouldnt pick up the phone for two days when playing a video game?

Hopefully tomorrow will be better for you....

He does usually come back after he feels better, and I try not to smother him. Im sure he needs his time alone. The waiting is hard, I keep having conversations with myself.

I wasn't playing the game for two days straight just happened to be when the person called...if I'm in A boss fight I'm not picking up the phone. Generally I don't call back people who call me, I do now because I'm on a leash since the psychosis but before I just didn't want to....I don't always like talking to people....it's so much easier with text now.

Ya when I talk to my dad abroad he notices when I'm talking like normal or have symptoms of anxiety etc or the meds aren't right but I love talking to him when I'm doing well cuz then we'd talk for hours about stuff it just depends @ sp you can get better.

i always lov talking to my daddy also we are very close

ok who later on wants to start a new roll call?

I know loial really wanted to start one but he's not normally on until the morning....we still have a couple hundred posts left...feeling chatty?

#Loilirollcall46 XP

kk and yes i feel very chatty

i finally got my haldol <333