Roll Call 45

You could totally do that cosplay. I don't do it, but I have a lot of friends that go to comic cons and anime conventions.

Was the perfect day for a nap. Plus, I took a shower and feel good now.

Starting eating healthier tomorrow

You could do a story on the moth....

https://pitchline.themoth.org/pitchl...tory/index.php

It's a radio/podcast kind of deal and they are always looking for stories.....they are just stories of things that happen in people's lives. It might be fun....I'm not exactly sure how it works though.

I'm refusing to take my meds. I don't want them and that's that. That's just the way I'm feeling. I don't care who tries to get me to take them. I refuse point blank.

hey yuns

i got sent home early from work. bc the power went out and we were running on generators and there were no customers. it went out bc there was very strong winds today. now im home w/ my toby man.

This is going to sound weird but do people here have secrets? I don't mean post them or anything but do you have things you just don't tell people for some reason....

I used to have them but post psychosis and therapy and all that I just don't really have anything that's totally a secret anymore....I feel like I had to be honest to get better....

There's a ton I won't say because I could be easily identified. I say very little about myself. People who knew me in the past would find out, I'm sure, that it's me posting my now pathetic circumstances. I just don't want to be identified. But I've always been relatively close mouthed about myself and my life.

I have secrets like.. Yes.. I do believe in a lot of paranormal things but ya.. It's not real.. But I do admit that it kind of is..

But I won't admit that I'm pretty sure it's real because of experience.

Most secrets I say on here to get insight. Taking 100mg of Prozac is fine but if I said 100mg risperidone because I need to gain weight then id know there's something wrong from feedback.

I have plenty of secrets that I'll likely take to my grave, yes.

Yeah I don't mean just on here because I don't tell everyone my identity either but I just I can't think of a single thing that someone somewhere doesn't know....there was a podcast about the website post secret which I used to enjoy but once you have no secrets yourself it's like its not as fun or something.

psychcentral is my home. i would like to move my blog here to help more people but im not sure. what should i do? i feel like their could be more realistic expereinces about schizophrenia out there and most importantly just MORE.

I don't believe that. I have OCD thoughts that I would tell certain about but it sure as hell wouldn't be fun to talk about such sick twists **** like that that would probably get me in trouble o.0

How do you deal with that with the professionals...I just feel like everything I mean not to say I end up telling them at some point.....it's like confession or something(not that I've ever done confession).

i used to have secrets from certain people. like my drug use from my mom and family. same with my eating disorder. i kept the secret of my relationship with former T all to myself for almost 2 years. nowadays i dont have many secrets except maybe at work. people at work dont know anything about my life with the exception of the store manager who knows i have a mental illness. but yea the other cashiers and baggers and people dont know anything about me. and i like it that way.

I never read the blogs on here but they probably have a higher Google page rank if you're looking for exposure.....

Does it feel better having at least one person to share with?

if people can get more information that is ACCURATE on schizophrenia i could change peoples lives. but even like realistic experiences. not just from a doctor or a therapist thats pushing out information that you see everyday on the internet and can see pretty anywhere on the internet nowadays PLUS most of the information is inaccurate

i just want to help people. and i think people would really learn from blogs of any kind. i mean i know i do and i know lots of other people do.

Thei is totally true and I thought of writing a book once because of this but then I realized that all my comments on PC are searchable and highly ranked by Google, one of my early threads on abilify withdrawal has like 10,000 views now so I agree that using the audience power of PC can make a difference....

You mentioned the other day that you wanted to do more on this site, maybe this is one way to do that?

I think that's great....I like helping people too at least virtually...in fact when my pdoc asked me what would keep me alive if suicidal that was the thing I said.....it's very powerful.

like i never truly thought about going into fields such as psychology or being a psychiatrist because to me that would be just so typical of what so many people do. ive seen so many people in college say they want to be a therapist or something because they have mental illness themselves but i feel like you cant really change things so much being someone like that. i feel like being an activist in change constantly and sharing experiences and actual time with people and not requesting money for it will actually help people not only seek out more help (from the right people) but change the world and mental health system we are living in. idk am i wrong?

That's an interesting thought, never really considered that. I don't know why I'm like this but it goes back to childhood where I was told never to reveal private things about the family. I think it has a lot to do with the narcissistic issues of certain family members.

maybe it is. maybe thats something i can do.
i ALSO have seen my posts from psychcentral on google just by typing in schizophrenia and then some other word attached to it like "schizophrenia and haldol" or "schizophrenia + whatever" you know.

It can only help to do whatever you can. I think you will make a difference.

It's like peer support but on the net....I think it sounds great and you should get it started while you are still enthusiastic about it.