Roll Call 48

im really sleepy now. i went outsdie and the cat was still out there. it makes me sad. poor guy. i cant be his mommy. he has a mommy. i hope she comes hom soon. im tobys mommy.

Sorry, that's right, I forgot you'd said that before.

as soon as i read this i cried a bit.
i just like i dont even want to think about my extended family right now.

but thanks.

like it really bothers me. i mean THEY do. its one of those things ive been thinking about for months and i dont even want to be on facebook that much anymore. i just want to be away from them right now.

no your fine. your just trying to help. thank you

everyone having a hard time tongiht. for every one

like its to the point that my grandma got pretty much kicked out of her house and now i have to go through one of my aunts to get ahold of her - and i really really really dont want to talk to my extended family right now and so now i cant talk to my grandma whos in her 80s because my family is just this weird passive aggressive people

my cousin warned me about these particular family members and i didnt listen to her and i judged her because i knew she has mental health issues tooo and now im getting the EXACT same treatment she got from them.

i SHOULDVE EFFING LISTENED TO HER.

i know your trying to help Ody.
thank you for helping

I can feel the spiral starting. I thought I had cut it off at the pass when I went in to see my pdoc 2 wks ago and got started on Seroquel. I feel worse now than I did before.

thank you

im glad i took my nigh meds early cuz they arent kicking in.
trying to remind myself i have therapy in 2 days... :/

thank you god.

do you feel a downward spiral too?

Yes. I can feel it. I don't want to feel it but I do. Going to try to get in to see my pdoc this week. I absolutely cannot go inpatient again. Absolutely cannot. **** mental illness

i forgot about that...
i wonder if ill goto inpatient too...
now im really scared...

No, we aren't going back to the hospitals. This is just one bad night, we can get over this. We will feel better tomorrow.

I'm going to attempt to stop picking....starting Now

gonna try to goto bed

Been up listening to speedy speed boy by initial D and jumping around and running around the apartment. Not sure what my problem is but I'm feeling fantastic.

Feeling pretty weird today, can't find a reason for it though so I don't know what it is. I've been feeling like this for a few days now. Might go to the other dimension park.
Anyone else have the feeling weird and that something is wrong but you can't work out what it is? I don't know if it's like residual psychosis or if it's things coming back a bit or what...

It feels like there's something wrong with the world and something wrong with me. I feel quite paranoid too

You've been doing really well, just think of this as a bump in the road, it'll pass.

Good morning all. I didn't get up early enough but it's sunny here. Glad of that. Hope everyone feels better today.

I cannot wait to bring my daughter to see Cinderella. Wish I were more comfortable in public areas. Oh well...Ativan should help and my little one will be so happy!

the voices didnt come back. yay!! i am so happy. i have to do a lot of homework today. like a lot. cuz i procrastinated all week. and its due tonight. supposed to get a few inches of snow here in the afternoon. BUHHHH!!!!!!!!!!