Roll Call 49

but ummm my feet smell right now

im freezing soooo bad right now

Idk if I'm "stable" or not.

I mean, I'm finally functioning again. So that's good.

Diagnosed with with schizophrenia and I still think I'm fine. I feel like isolating myself makes it much worse

Anyways..

The huger just struck me I need to eat looaaadds. I'm gonna ask for more that seconds ..

I want foooood

I skipped lunch because I wasn't hungry and usually that's ok but I want to raid a fridge and binge everything

My life is about food now and I'm taking double that amount of Invega in the morning
OLY AHTI IM SIN OF IDK I SPEELLED CONVEINEIEBYT WRONG I WAS JUST JOKIBG PHOBE

Ill leave it like this idk.. Ya..

i know in becoming less stable.
i dont thhink im stable at all right now seeing as what happened yesterday. but im still having small periods of being semi-ok. but way less periods of being ok. havingg way more episodes right now. im pretty nervous about what police. thats really almost all thats on my mind

fast asleep

i think theres a bully in the group tho. this one chick is acting real tough and is a little bigger than the other chicks. and pushing them around.

i took a bath

This middle aged woman was talking at me and I didn't notice it because I as listening to music on my phone.

I said "Sorry? I didn't hear what you said".

She said something weird to herself, made a face and left.

tweaky
tweaky
tweaky

Going to the spaghetti warehouse for my stepdads birthday.

ugh i love that place!!!
my favorite food is pasta/noodles!

heh you would love when my stepdad or his mom cook. My stepdads mom if from Italy. They make bad *** pasta/noodles.

I'm feeling half hyper and half agitated..

Could be akathesia idk I'll look it up. But what I felt on self medicated 12mg risperdal, THAT was akathesia..

Or maybe I should ask for a cogentin

When they stick the needle into my arm muscle, how long does it last I wonder

i could eat noodles all day.

i cant wait for this chat tonight
whos showing up?

Oh damn I forgot about the chat. I'm going to miss it tonight.

I'm not sure I'll be up by then.

that sucks guys. its all good tho!

it must be a rooster

ugh
wow i feel paranoid.
in trying to take my mind off everything
but i really cant.
i just cant. my mind feels exhausted but it wont stop. im very emotionally exhausted.

and then im physically not feeling well on top of that. idk whats wrong.

i suppose so. i didnt think about that.
i need to do some googling

that's unbelieveable no one is answering!!!i feel for you, been through the same thing where i couldn't take care of myself, ended up on the pshyc ward which really woke me up, got on meds and am fine since 2008. in the 1980's i was first diagnosd with bipolar, schitzophrenia, and depression. i know the feeling of needing crisis services and they were not any help either.i had my dad drive me to the hospital.when i couldn't take care of myself my brothers and sisters were making fun of me and i think that lead me to almost kill myself. i have 9 brothers and sisters and my younger sister killed herself after they needed to make fun of someone else in the family when i wasn't there anymore. please try crisis services again. i wish you all good and well-good luck

ummm can i go to bed now??????

no.

i cant stop pulling my hair :/