Roll Call 49

Omg, exactly.

Afternoon roll call!

In a strange mood today... quite with it, but I've no idea what to do!

I'm starting to feel that I don't want to be APs for too much longer. I'm not sure whether I'm just getting better or if the risperidone is working better but I feel much better in myself & my voices are quiet quiet & really aren't bothering me. Just a case now of the napping / slight loss in motivation which I am quite sure is down to the meds. If I could be without that I'd be in a really good place right now... perhaps I'll stick out meds until the summer then say I want to try going med free.

Here they are all grown up.....

i woke up at 11:00 today and meeting with my respite worker and i have really really bad cramps

i used to have geese and i HATE them i got attacked by one it was scary but now to look back it was kinda funny

i was looking at the largest chicken mailorder site and they have a chicken category called "Barbeque Special".

Do they come with a sauce?

lol no.
they also have a frying pan special

So what are you going to do with yours Newtus?

im raising chickens as pets
i didnt buy them to eat them personally

ive also never raised chickens so i want to learn how to raise them

Hi Loial. Great to hear you're doing so well! Now that everything is under control Im sure you feel like going med free. I just hope you dont place too much emphasis on it because that is the pitfall many of us make with our meds. Obviously some do go med free and are fine so its worth trying just be prepared in case symptoms do come back. Its not a failure to go back on meds.

i feel like a failure to go back on meds.
idk... i just feel like its a step back but im not doing entirely well off meds anyway.

good to hear from you loial

Yeah I am aware that's one of the reasons of non-compliance with meds, feeling back to normal so wanting to come off them. Who knows, only time will tell but I'm hopeful. I'm not sure why I am so keen to be off all my meds now but I am.

I am going to call the doctors on Monday to ask about tapering off my Citalopram. I've had very little for m anxiety for months now so I am happy it's done it's job & got me back to normal. I think perhaps getting the psychosis under control has helped on that front too.

i dont want to be home alone but theres nothing else to do and nowhere for me to go

You're not alone...you have chicks!

taking with my bff

I can't think properly on 12mg Invega.

Screw this I'm done. I'm going to smack a piece of paper on his desk and say this..

1. I'm not ****ing psychotic
2. Change me back to Abilify. The nurses over reacted and if you don't like my shaking, put me back on Klonopin for a few weeks.
3. Up the concerta to 108mg or switch me to ritalin
4. Put me on Klonopin 2mg prn for when I get agitate.

IM SICK OF THIS LITERALLY
NO MORE ********

lol yea. they were watching QVC last night

idk why my mom doesnt want to spend time with me or even talk to me on the phone

yep Newtus youre a mother hen now!

Got sent home early from work today so I don't go overtime. Woop woop! Now I just gotta make lunch and attack my house with an arsenal of organizational motivation. If you don't hear from me in a bit, I might have gotten retaliation from the dust bunnies.

I'm thinking of waiting on my tattoo and getting a ps4

I'm trying to trace the outline of schizophrenia in my life but it's too confusing. I guess it's not meant for me to figure out.

I feel so weird. Like a wide awake zombie how can I describe this.. Like akathesia it probably is.

I have no energy everything is so calm that moving my arm does weird ****..

I can't think.

I'm refusing this drug from hell in the morning because I can't take it anymore. I knew this would happen it's basically the same as risperdal

They gave me 50mg of seroquel to stop it and I said "More antipsychotics??" and he said that I can have an Ativan at lunch

It's like my mind is trapped in the skull it's a disturbing feeling. Idk why he would increase it to such a level.

Also I can't be schizophrenic. I don't believe that I'll relapse when I quit my antipsychotics so ya..

saw T. we watched derren brown videos. lol. T does hypnosis and so does derren brown. derren brown is awesome. anyway i have to go to work really soon.