Roll Call 52

90,000 words? Yowzer! May I ask what your degrees are in?

Just remember not to do what I did after I woke up from 3mg Klonopin. Next time I ever take benzos to relax, I'm hiding the bottle from myself so I don't do something stupid like I once did because it's like alcohol but not knowing the dosages because of intoxication with lowered inhibitions.

"Imma snort 4 benzos".

- Tweaky running out of tweak.

mine was only 90 pages, it's different in the sciences, they are more worried about what you've done than what you think....you're computer science right? It probably won't be so bad as Neil's...

No worries. My dog escaping just set off my anxiety. I'm okay now...just a bit sleepy

Well it's not really a dissertation, it's a final year project and a report to accompany it. So you make some software or hardware and report on it. I believe the average is about 4,000 odd lines of code (if you're making an app or something) and a 20,000-25,000 word report.

I do have an idea for it though and it'll either be this coming semester or the following year depending on if I go for the ordinary or honors degree. My idea would have so much to research so that could fill it up. I'm just not the most consistent worker so I'm worried!

Yep comp science (infrastructure), it won't be like a thesis thesis, I don't think it will be. To be honest I don't know a whole lot about the process. Here's hoping it won't be too bad! The project itself will be easier than the report I'd say.

So tired today, have to study hard tonight.

I don't know whether that was a really dark joke or serious.

My first reaction was to laugh, but my second reaction suggested I'm an asshole.

I've noticed that. There's almost pride behind it. It's nothing to be proud of, believe me.

they were in medieval studies, Odysseus.

Honestly writing the Phd wasnt hard; it broke down into 6 chapters, an Intro and conclusion so each part was only 10000 words give or take. I was used to writing essay papers of 3000-4000 so each chapter was just a few essays pinned together. It was just a question of willpower to stick with it day in and day out.

For the metalheads on the board. Rock out to this awesome tune!

I hate to admit that my dog triggered me damn near into psychosis. Brought me right back to when my last pup got hit and died in my arms.

Made a twitter. Also trying to raise money for my mom

I would do it for fun, go on live camera and put the blood on my face like a hunter gatherer. Lots of views. People thought it was cool because I'd be high while doing it with cool switch blade knives and machetes.

Focusing on a logical alternative is something people should be proud of as well as acknowledging their advice, Not cutting while they're wallowing in their own * and showing every scar as a sign of how they gave up, talking about it like I talk about drugs on the side. It's obsessive. There's only that opinion. Along with many questions that they all of a sudden then have the right to say "This one is because blablabla" It's not that addicting either.

Cutting is irrational. The same is said for any other addiction. If someone wants help, don't cut. If you want to show off, you're saying that in the name of every person that Cuts.

I tried cutting when I was agitated and thought to myself.. Why? Now I have a few scars.

But I also noticed that I needed to have a lot of hatred for myself and confusion to enjoy the even almost acute pain. Mostly it's because I wanted a rush. I ran out of stimulants so I down graded to the delusional thinking of cutting while having distorted thoughts that are controlled by emotions and amplified by stimulant crashes.

**** now I'm triggered back yo the deaths of my patents. Fml

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My thoughts are all over the place right now. I keep thinking that someone is going to break in. It's mental torture.

Keep thinking someone is gonna break into house.

I know it's a delusion or paranoia of some sort but it feels so real

Watching the Brats movie for shits and giggles.

Meds are on board and the house is quiet. Feeling better now.

Skipped breakfast lunch and dinner.

Idek I have 0 appetite.

Might as well go out and get some fresh air and a cigarette.

The power went out and my damn surge protector won't stop beeping.

Hi kindness, nice to meet you.

Been working on moving furniture all day

Only two weeks until my mom gets married and we move, idk how well get it done in time

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I hate when that happens, do you have a way of resetting it? Or do you have to wait till the power comes back?