Roll Call 52

I love Star Trek! Which people are going to be there?

Now you know how I feel when I eat animal crackers
(I'm a vegetarian)

Becoming by Nine Inch Nails
I think of that song when I think about my illness too.

Having so much fun playing my 3DS. Pokemon Y and Animal Crossing a New Leaf. And reading a good book. Doing stuff I enjoy, talked to my mom on the phone today. She's okay and may be coming home tomorrow

My psychiatrist said the label doesn't matter, it's just about getting the meds right. I love that guy.

Does your therapist have your psychiatrist's or practitioner's name? They should act as a team ideally.

My new computer will be here tomorrow hopefully, it's the magenta HP stream. Really cute. Plus speakers for it and a new bookmark.

I bought a new laptop not too long ago. It was like opening a Christmas present! I was like a spring chicken (Newtus, is there such a thing?)! I hope you like yours.

had a better day at work

Picture of the hospital, getting admitted today

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Good luck Falcon

toby is my pillow

I almost forgot. Today was tiny kitten day at work.

That's so cute Door

Got my wax warmer going, melting some coconut breeze wax and relaxing with a cup of chamomile tea

their offices are right next door to each other literally. i finallg got my therapist to email my NP. but my NP wont change my dose just cuz this second NP in the room spoke up about this damn stupid study about women taking high doses of ambien. like? it has nothing to do with me and its a 6 month old study that hasnt been replicated. wtf?

God, I have a dirty mind.

i was outside smoking and my next door neighbor came up to me and told me that there was a fist fight in front of our apartments on the 6th (i must have been at work) . also she said there were kids picking up and messing with my package i had delivered a few weeks ago. i noticed it was hidden behind my cig butt bucket and i thought the ups man did that. but my neighbor told me she did it cuz she saw those kids playing with it and told them to go away. now i am terribly anxious. i took a prn just now. i dont want ot get paranoid but those things are unsettling. i love my apartment but the location is just not safe. i HATE feeling unsafe.

also this bagger man atw ork that is basically sexually harassing me said something really gross and sexual to me at work and i finally spoke up and told him tostop but he just laughed. i am proud of myself for telling him to stop but he doesnt care. other than that i had a good day at work.

i hope the prn settles my nerves. i can already feel the paranoia creeping in

I've had that happen to me at work as well. a few times. It sucks, a lot.

Today has been a much better day Even with a so so appt with my pdoc. Curled up on the couch with a cup of tea and a couple dogs

I hate that feeling. A while back someone stole a saw from our shed, I felt unsettled for weeks. Even now I triple check the locks every time I go by the doors. Today there was a truck creepin around at 6:30 this morning...I almost called the police but decided they'd chalk it up to paranoid nosy lady.

i have a tendency to be passive and not speak up when i feel violated. its a pattern in my life. so i felt good that i told him to stop even though he just laughed. T said that it is sexual harassment. he said he was proud of me for saying stop. we have talked about this man before and T urged me to say something to him but i was too scared. but i finally did say something. i dont know how to get this man to stop doing these things. he also touches me a lot.

im waiting for the prn to kick in. i feel scared. im trying to tell myself that i am safe and there is no danger right now. im calling myself stupid for thinking moving here would make me feel safer.

i hope the new ambien helps u sleep better. i cant take ambien it made me psychotic. i hope that doesnt happen to you. but it can happen because its a hypnotic. so just be careful

I'm really sorry you are going through this